𝐑𝐈𝐃𝐄 | B.E

PART 15

015; fragile

tw: self harm, alcohol abuse, and mentions of abuse.

katherine's pov

"what are you going to do with your dad gone?" the car jolts to a stop as billie parks in the driveway outside my house. my heart ached so badly that i was incapable of looking at my own home.

the insane amount of pain, hurt, and trauma i'd been through inside the walls of a supposed safe space caused my stomach to wrench at the simple thought of entering alone.

"hey... baby?" billie speaks again in order to get my attention while removing her keys out of the ignition, the palm of her hand gently grips onto my upper thigh making me turn to glance at her.

"oh um- i don't know. he'll be back in a couple of weeks" i explained barely being able to feel a single ounce of hurt anymore. utterly numb to the things that once hurt me, and that began to worry me.

"weeks?!" she exclaimed, i realized that i'd never told billie how regular his actions were. "y-yeah he's done this before when things go wrong" i somewhat elaborated choosing to leave out the embarrassing details.

"how many times has he just left?" billie questioned curiously, my eyes staring out the window glaring at the building in front of me. "this would be the third time" i replied feeling her gaze burn into the back of my skull.

"after my sister went into rehab he was just gone, my mother wouldn't tell me where he was" i say in a quiet voice. "i'm really scared of being alone in there" i admitted noticing my leg beginning to bounce allowing my nerves to get the best of me.

"you don't have to be... i'll stay with you" billie offers, brushing her fingers down to my kneecap softly tracing her thumb to ease the shaking. we'd been spending so much precious time together that selfishly i'd been keeping her from the family and friends she had.

i'm sure she'd rather see ana or her brother than be here with me.

"i don't want to keep you from anyone" i shake my head while connecting our eyes, billie scoffs lightly with a sweet smile laced on her lips. "if i wasn't here with you right now i'd be in my room glued to my phone" she explained keeping our stuck together like glue.

"i'd rather be with you than anyone else" billie adds, using her index finger and thumb to tilt my chin down and places a kiss on my forehead. she's the girl i've only ever dreamt of having in my life which made me terrified of losing her yet i had no idea what we were to each other.

"i want you to stay" i nod lightly, not only did i want to spend every second of the day with billie but the thought of spending the night alone inside my own home sent chills right down my spine.

i hoped with every piece of faith in me that i had the strength to hold on. now that i had someone to lose i desperately needed to live so badly that i wanted to die. whether i were happier or not that fear of losing the one person you need to breathe turns out to be enough to scare you to death.

billie's pov

shutting the door behind me i made sure to lock it instantly, knowing we'd be alone here tonight. i notice the doorknob has been changed from me breaking down the old one. my eyes wandered the room until they abruptly stop on the broken shards of glass from the smashed photo frames remaining on the floor.