suicidal love

chapter 8

Every time I saw Rickey I fell more for him he meant the world to me. Now it was almost 6month tht we've dating

But Rickey changed alot he started hanging out with Sam's crew he hated me alot , every time I went to see Rickey he seemed to be bothered by my existence even though i talked with Rick about it but all he said was that I should no worry and that feeling of loneliness and insecurity camd back to me again.
Rickey started lying to me and he never kept his promises but I couldn't stop loving him. I was sure that inside that guy there was my Rick,
But i was wrong my Rick disappeared that sweet romantic boy who I fell in love with disappeared,
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"So what ur running away?" Rickey yelled "like a coward?"

"What? Its not like u wanted me here anyway!"

"Don't go guilt-t ripping me Carolina"

"Me? What? You're the one who asked me to leave" I shouted

"Because you were being dramatic!" Rickey explained

"I left because all you wanted to do was having sex" I yelled

Rickey scoffed "Please.thats not true."

"Yes it is" I cried "seriously every time we hang out you try to get in my pants"

"HAHA ! Sam was right ,every single word he said was right "

I felt tears running threw my eyes as I ran away

And after 2 weeks he ended up our relationship for some shity reasons saying that we're done and he doesn't got time for me for our relation.

I wasnt convinced with those reasons I didn't want to let go I wanted to fight for our love. So I decided to go and talk to him

"Hey Rickey can I speak with you for a moment? "

"Wassup"

"Rick was it easy?"

"Was what easy?"

"Leaving me , saying all that cute stuff then just walking away like it was nothing. Like we were nothing. Like I was nothing. "

"Sorry bae but I can't be dating a suicidal girl or as they call u the SG"

And there for the first time Rickey said it out loud in front of everyone i wished if this was only one of my nightmares .
Rickey turned against me as everyone did I wasn't sure if I was really dating that guy .
After finishing his show he turned and walked away I really wished that I was dead by then. If his words would cut as deep as my razors did I could be dead by now...
Silly girl you thought he'd stay
Silly girl thinking he meant it all
Silly girl he never cared abt you
Silly girl he never loved u...