Bad Choices || Auston Matthews

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We leave to visit William's family tomorrow morning. I have to go pick up Caleb from Auston's. Last night was the first full night's rest I've gotten in quite a while.

I got to Auston's and knocked on his front door. After about a minute he answered. He had C in his arms, in just a diaper.

"Sorry he's not ready, yet. He had a blow out and needed a bath" he apologized.

"It's fine, you need help?" I asked as he let me on.

"No, I got it" he answered. He looked at me for a second and then brushed my hair off of my neck.

"I see you and Willy had fun last night?" He asked. I nodded as he set C on the couch to get him dressed.

"So... Our sex wasn't good enough for you? You had to go to Willy?" He asked, getting defensive. I rolled my eyes.

"You seem to forget that he's my boyfriend" I replied.

"You could have said you weren't in the mood" he suggested.

"I did and it turned into a conversation of what he could do better and he took it seriously and I had the best sex I've ever had" I shrugged. He groaned, clearly pissed.

"So, you're saying I don't fuck you good enough?" He asked. I rolled my eyes as he put C in his carseat.

"I never said that. Don't put words into my mouth." I snapped.

"You said that you had the best sex with him last night, so clearly I'm lacking somewhere" he sighed.

"I'm allowed to think sex with my boyfriend was mind blowing. I really don't understand why you're so upset" I shrugged.

"Because I thought you had a good time and then you turn around and get seconds from Willy"  he snapped.

"Whatever Auston. I regret ever talking to you at the bar. Just give me my son and I'll leave" I spat. He just stared at me, his eyes welling up with tears.

"Y-you don't mean that do you?" He choked out.

"Auston, I love our son but you're more stress than it's worth" I told him.

"So this is it? You're just gonna completely ignore the chemistry we have?" He asked.

"Chemistry? Auston, if we were in a lab, it would've blown up. Plus, we've only ever had sex, we've never been on a date, we've never been together. It's always been just sex." I explained.

"Please don't do this, Sadie! I'm so in love with you" he begged.

"How can you be in love with me if we've only had sex?" I asked.

"I knew I felt something for you, the moment I saw you. I knew I loved you when you told me you were pregnant, everything was tied together when we were in Arizona and it was just us, hockey wasn't around, Willy wasn't around. It was just you, me and C. Nothing else mattered. I got to know you more and it feels like you're the one for me" he explained. I sat there and looked at him.

"Don't say I don't care, you and Caleb are the people I care about the most. I can't lose you" he stated, a tear rolling down his cheek.

"Auston..." I spoke, not exactly knowing what to say.

"You don't need to say anything. Just please don't leave me" he told me.

"I have to go. William and I need to finish packing..." I said awkwardly, putting C in his carseat.

"I love you" he confessed. I nodded as I finished buckling C in. I picked up the diaper bag and carseat and walked out of the house.

Every time I'm sure of my feelings, Aus goes and fucks it up.