sarah paulson character - one shots

im with you(Ally Mayfair-Richards)

Info: You have been degraded and disappointed by men your whole life so you joined a cult called 'SCUM' that specifically hated all men. At this cult, you met a woman named Ally and you instantly knew she was different.

Trigger warning: Breakup, Suicidal thoughts, Thoughts of self-harm

I slammed my foot down on the gas pedal and sped off. I saw my now ex-boyfriend flipping me off in the rear view mirror as I drove off his long drive way. Tears rushed down my face in a mix of sadness and anger. We had just had a fight after he realised I was a lesbian. I had never noticed and thought it was normal to not be attracted to your boyfriend. I was in denial for ages and struggled to admit my true feelings until now. I had just had enough of hiding so I decided to tell him and judging by where I was now, he was not ok with the whole situation.

I kept driving, not entirely sure where I was going. I didn't even care. I wanted to be anywhere that wasn't my house. I would rather drive around the whole town than go home. I would be alone and sad. I had always had suicidal and harmful thoughts and if I wasn't driving, I would be acting on them. I eventually pulled up in the parking lot of a restaurant. It looked empty and closed. My phone read 2:38AM. I hit the steering wheel in anger, the horn blaring for split seconds before it repeated as I hit it over and over again. Then I buried my face in my hands and whimpered loudly, the seriousness of the situation finally hitting me. 

*Knock knock* I flinched as someone knocked on my driver-side window with the joint of their finger. I met the gaze of a woman. She looked kind, and actually familiar. She had brown, shoulder length hair and wore a green cloak like she was dressed as a cliché witch from a movie. "Hello, Miss, Are you ok? Can I help you?" She looked concerned and smiled at me. I felt safe. I felt ok like her aura was a protective blanket that wrapped around us. I rolled the window down and smiled back at her. "Hi, um it- it's ok I just- I just had a fight with- well I guess my ex-boyfriend now." I laughed then sobbed again. I wasn't exactly sure why I was sad. I never liked him. If anything, I was free. I could be who I really was. "Oh, I'm sorry Miss, Would you like to come in? Me and my- friends, are in there. I own the restaurant." I looked at the deserted-looking building and then back at her. I smiled and nodded, rolling the window back up and getting out the car. I locked the car automatically before following the mysterious woman in the solid structure.

She held the door open for me and I followed her into the back of the restaurant. I noticed the room we entered had the lights on and a circle of women sat on chairs, chatting quietly. I turned to the woman in confusion. "What- what's going on here?" I gulped and she gently rubbed my bicep in a comforting way.  "Well since you're here, I may as well tell you. We are part of a women's group called 'SCUM' and-" I cut her off in shock. "Oh my- I know this- I know you! You're Ally Mayfair Richards! You're that woman who survived the cult!" The talking the in the room ceased and I felt eyes all over me. I could feel the tension in the room, presumable because they didn't know if I was ok with it or not. "I love you- I mean like you're an icon. You are like one of the most incredible women I've ever known." She smiled and blushed while walking me over to the now comfortable group of women and pulled me a chair. "Thank you dear, I appreciate your words of kindness." She took a seat at the empty chair next to a woman who I instantly recognised as Beverly Hope. I saw her every day on the news until she just vanished, due to Kai Anderson and his fucked-up cult. She smiled at me before turning to Ally as she talked.

"So, ladies, we have a new member to our group. Would you like to introduce yourself and tell us about why you're here?" I nodded and cleared my throat. "Well, hi everyone. My name is (y/n) (y/l/n), I am 23 years old, and I just had a fight with my now ex-boyfriend because I could finally admit that I am a lesbian." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, until I heard clapping. I opened my eyes and saw Ally clapping and smiling at me. I blushed and looked around as everyone else began to clap as well. "Thank you for that (y/n), that sounds difficult. But you did it. And I'm so proud of you. You are so brave and so unbelievably strong, I'm happy for you as well for realising who you are." I felt tears in my eyes, and I pouted at Ally, barely keeping myself together. She walked up to me, and I rose as she pulled me in for a warm, comforting hug. I let the tears fall as I tightly closed my eyes. I had never been talked to with that much respect and friendliness. "Thank you, Ally." I whispered against her shoulder, and she squeezed a slight bit tighter and whispered back "It's ok, 𝙄'𝙢 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙮𝙤𝙪."

a/n - ok im sorry abt how bad this one is its just i started it ages ago and just finished it today lol. also thank u for 1k views on my Diane Sherman book, protected, it means the world to me!! have a good day/night, i luv you all!