sarah paulson character - one shots

be quiet(Mildred Ratched)

Info: You are an average girl, or at least that's what everyone thinks. They don't know that you're a lesbian. You go to a gay bar that is secluded and safe for you and the other women there. You made lot's of friends and had some one night stands, but nothing serious. Not until you met 𝘩𝘦𝘳.

Trigger warning: Smut, being closeted, alcohol, spoilers ig(Ratchet)!!

I pulled my vintage car into a parking space and took the key out of the ignition. Pulling the vanity mirror down, I checked my curled, (y/h/c) hair and red lipstick. Soon I left the car and began walking to the entrance of the bar. I was wearing a grey suit, slightly feminine but to all my friends and family who didn't know my secret, it was considered 'too manly' and 'not lady-like'. I hated them for that. I hated the stereotyping. The need they had for me to be 'the perfect woman'. I hated being told who to be and what to do. It wasn't in my nature to be like other people. And I would have my way if I wasn't scared. But can you blame me? If people knew that I was a lesbian, I would be shunned, committed and probably killed. The fear of being found was scary, but I was slowly being less scared of it. I didn't want to hide anymore.

The big door swung open and the sound of talking filled the room. I saw familiar faces, and some unfamiliar. There was always new people here. But it would usually only be for one time. Then I would never see them again. Probably because they were too scared of being caught. I walked over to the bar and took a seat on my own. Susan, the owner of the bar and a long time friend of mine, walked over to me and smiled. "The usual, (y/n)?" I smiled and nodded once as she began pouring my usual martini. "Make that two, please." I turned my head and looked up at the unknown but gorgeous voice. I was met by a woman, a very beautiful woman. She was wearing a mustard, yellow, vintage dress. Her hair was in a neat bun and had a hat placed perfectly on top. She looked down at me and smiled, taking a seat at the stool next to me. Then she took my hand and brought it close to her face. "Mildred Ratched, pleased to make your acquaintance." She kissed my hand and I chuckled in a seductive way. "I'm (y/n), (y/n) (y/l/n). It's nice to meet you." She smiled at me but soon looked at Susan and smiled at her and she handed us our drinks. "Don't worry, it's on me." Mildred smirked at me before converting her gaze to her bag to get the money out.

She paid and Susan walked off, but not without winking at me. I smiled at her and turned to Mildred as she sipped her drink. "So, why are you here Mildred?" I took my martini and looked at her as she cleared her throat and began talking. "Well, I'm a nurse at Lucia state hospital. I just recently moved here." I nodded and swallowed the strong liquid. "Oh wow, so you're like only here for the job?" She nodded but seemed to be tense from my question. "What about you? How long have you been here?" I took a deep breath while thinking about what to say. "Well I was born here. I've lived here ever since. I hate it here too, I can't wait to move." I laughed and moved the drink in my hand. "Why? I don't think it's so bad." I made a loud sarcastic laugh and shook my head slowly. "Yeah but all my family live here," She looked even more confused. "And they all want me to be 'normal' and like 'married with kids'. I have to hide and pretend. I really hate not being the real me." She smiled sympathetically and rubbed my bicep. I flinched at her touch but soon relaxed. "Well, at least you don't have to hide here." I looked up at her eyes. They were a gorgeous, dark brown and I felt so lost in them. She smiled and took her drink in her hand. "Here's to being- our real selves." She raised her glass and I did the same, then we took a drink.

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Many, many drinks in and we were very drunk. I realised I needed to use the bathroom. "I'll be back, Milly- I have to pee real bad." I erupted into silent laugher as I stumbled to the restroom. She laughed at me falling over and basically collapsing into the bathroom. I opened the first stall and did my business, while laughing the whole time. When I stood up and pulled my pants up, I heard knocking at the stall door. I flushed and opened the door, only to have Mildred's lips crash onto mine. I fell back and sat on the closed toilet seat lid. She kissed me desperately but also messily. I could taste alcohol on her breath and felt my lipstick spreading on my face. Mildred pulled away and quickly closed and locked the stall door. I laughed seductively as she turned and undid her dress, letting it fall around her ankles. I admired her black, lace underwear and perfect feminine figure.

She undid the buttons on my blazer top and then the buttons on my pants until I was only in red, underwear. She mounted my lap and kissed me with her hands on my neck. We kissed and her tongue made it's way along my  bottom lip. I opened my mouth and allowed her tongue to enter my mouth. She explored my mouth and I moaned into hers to tease her. But this only egged her on even more. She stuck her right hand into my underwear and began moving her fingers in circular motions on my clit. I moaned into her mouth as she was still kissing me hungrily. Then she pulled away and looked deeply in my eyes as she entered two fingers into me. I gasped but was cut off by her other hand on my mouth. "Shh, 𝙗𝙚 𝙦𝙪𝙞𝙚𝙩 for me baby." She smirked as she worked her fingers faster. After not very long, I was a moaning mess. When my orgasm hit, Mildred kissed me passionately to muffle my loud moans. I came on her fingers and she moaned quietly while licking the fluid off of her hand. "Oh my- Mildred, that was amazing." I spoke out of breath and she just kissed me in response while standing up and getting dressed. We left the stall and fixed our hair and makeup. After that, we left the bathroom as if nothing had happened. She walked me to my car and turned to me, smiling. "This was really fun, (y/n). I'd like to do it again sometime. So, here's my number, call me sometime." With that, she kissed my cheek and walked away to her car. I just stood there feeling happy and excited for the future.

a/n - ok so i dont know if i like this or not lol but hope u enjoyed, regardless. have a good night/day i love you <33