sarah paulson character - one shots

a fresh start(Lana Winters)

Info: You were a doctor at Briarcliff and fell for one of your patients, Lana Winters. You promised to get out of this place with her and your dreams have finally come true.

I'll say when to play the song!

Trigger warnings: Swearing, hints of homophobia, hints of torture!!

I stared intently at the grandfather clock that sat in the entrance of Briarcliff. 11:59AM. She needs to get here now. The taxi is arriving at 12:00PM. This has to go perfectly. This has to work. We need to get out of this place. It was my lunch break at 12:00PM and I always go to a café in town so they won't suspect a thing when I leave. I noticed movement next to me so I turned to look. That's when I saw her. Lana. I had fallen for Lana and she had fallen for me too. But we had to be secretive. We can barely even look at each other without being seen as 'too close'. Well that bullshit is going to stop. It ends now. She walked past me to the door and I walked behind her, acting like I didn't even see her. So did she. I opened the door and held the door open for her discreetly. She walked through and we began walking to the taxi that just pulled up in front of the entrance. I held the door open for her and she briefly smiled at me before getting in. I walked around and got in next to her, telling the driver to take us to my address.

The car came to a halt after driving for a while. I paid the man and left the car with Lana. I walked up the the front door, fast. I unlocked the door and held it open for Lana. After both of us where in the house, I locked the door and turned to see her looking at me, her eyes had tears in them. We ran towards each other and hugged one another tightly. It was amazing. I had wanted to hug her so much in that hellhole but it was way too dangerous. Everyone knew why Lana was there. But no one knew that I was also a lesbian. People thought it was weird that I was a female doctor. But if they knew I was a lesbian too, I wouldn't stand a chance. I pulled out of the hug and cupped Lana's face, wiping her tears with my thumbs. My eyes were full of tears and my lip quivered as I held back sobs. "I can't explain how long I've wanted to do that for." Her voice was broken and full of happiness and relief. "Yeah, me too. But we're free now. We can have 𝙖 𝙛𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙝 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙧𝙩, together." I smiled at her and she did too. Then she leaned in and kissed me. The kiss was medicinal, like it healed all the pain that we had both suffered in that place. My knees felt weak and my cheeks burned as Lana had her hands on my neck and I had my hands still on her face. We both pulled away and connected our foreheads, looking into each others eyes.

***

Me and Lana talked and joked while we unpacked her things in my room. It took a while but it was fun and a good opportunity to talk about everything we wanted to know about each other. Lana sat on one side of the bed and I threw myself on it, laying down and looking at the roof. Lana laid down next to me and I turned to see her facing me. "I am so glad we are finally free." Lana talked while smiling at me. "Me too, we can finally be together." She reached over and played with my hair, making me blush. "What are we going to do now though?" Lana asked and I looked at her, puzzled. "Well I suppose we could just hide out here, or we could move away somewhere," She looked at the bed as if thinking as I continued to speak. "You could write your book and expose that shithole for what it really is. I know you can do it Lana, you're a talented writer." She looked up at me and blushed at my compliment. "Thank you, dear. Don't worry, I will. I don't want anyone to suffer like we did." I nodded and held her hand, brushing her knuckles with my thumb. "But what are you going to do for a job?" She questioned me while looking concerned. "I don't know, maybe I'll see if I can get a job at the hospital in town. Or I could get a job waitressing or something. Why put us at a bigger risk?" She smiled sheepishly and nodded slowly. "Yeah, you're right."

***

I had no regrets about any of this. Me and Lana cooked dinner together and then watched a movie on my small TV. The movie was terrible and the quality on my box TV made it even worse but we didn't care, as long as we had each other we were happy. The credits started so I turned the TV off and walked over to my record player and put a vinyl on. *𝙿𝚕𝚊𝚢 𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚗𝚘𝚠*. 'Moonlight Serenade'. It was a classic and perfect for the moment. I walked up to Lana and put my hands out, she took them and stood up smiling as if she knew what I meant. "Care to dance with me?" I raised an eyebrow and she blushed and nodded. "Of course." Our hands landed on one another's waists and we swayed to the steady beat. "You know, I can't believe this is actually happening," I looked at Lana with a frown. "Every night in my cell I would dream of this moment. The moment I could hold you, and kiss you." Her voice cracked and a tear formed in the corner of her eye. "Same, I wanted to talk to you, and hug you, and tell you that I loved you all the time." I smiled even though I had tears running down my face. "Well, you can now." She examined my features and then looked back into my eyes. I connected our foreheads and smiled at her while crying heavily at this point. "I love you, Lana." I sniffled and she laughed sadly, wiping the tears from under my eyes. "I love you too, (y/n). More than you will ever know. And I'm so unbelievably happy that I can finally tell you." She closed her eyes tightly and her eyes watered. I wiped them away with my thumbs and kissed her deeply. I was finally happy.

a/n - im crying while writing this rn omfg ;-;. anyways, hope u enjoyed this one and pls have a great day/night and never forget, i love you all sm <33