sarah paulson character - one shots

but it still hurts(Mamie Eisenhower)

Info: You were abducted by aliens and forced to stay at Area 51 for the human-alien hybrid experiments. You had been lonely for years until you noticed a woman and you became friends.

Trigger warning: Kidnapping, human experimentation, spoilers(American horror story - Double feature/death valley), swearing, murder, night terrors, hints of depression, C-section!

Italics(𝘗𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘪𝘦𝘸) is your thoughts!

"𝘕𝘰 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬, 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱! 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘵𝘢, 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘪𝘵 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘴!" 𝘐 𝘤𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘨𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭 𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘴𝘦 𝘣𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘥. 𝘐 𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘢𝘴 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯. 𝘚𝘶𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘤𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘥, 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘦. "𝘋𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥, 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘰𝘯. 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘭𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺 𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵." 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘵𝘢 𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺. "𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘨𝘰 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺." 𝘐 𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘳𝘢𝘯 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦. 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘯𝘦𝘹𝘵. "𝘑𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩, 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦." 𝘐 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘣𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯. 𝘐 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘬𝘪𝘯 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯 𝘣𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘢𝘳 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘦𝘳 𝘬𝘯𝘪𝘧𝘦. 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘤𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘺. 𝘕𝘦𝘹𝘵, 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴, 𝘐 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘵𝘢 𝘴𝘢𝘺 "𝘈𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘺𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘥." 𝘧𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘤𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘧𝘧. 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵.

I woke up drenched in sweat and manically breathing. 𝘐𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘦, 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘮 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯. I sat up in my white bed and waited for my breathing to slow down. I cupped my heavily pregnant stomach and rubbed circles on it. 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯. I had given birth to those...things, countless times and I was not ready to do it again. I had nightmares of doing it every night. 𝘐 𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵. I stood up and walked into my bathroom to take a shower. Afterwards, I put on another set of white overalls that hugged my large bump perfectly. I walked to the tall mirror that sat next to my bed and picked at everything like my hair. When I first arrived here, I had (y/h/l) (y/h/c) hair that was now drastically different after many years of no haircuts. I also looked tired. I had not slept properly since I was ripped from my home. 𝘐 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺. 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘯𝘰𝘸. I felt tears fill my eyes before I turned and walked to get 'breakfast'.

I walked down the white steps into the, not surprisingly, all white room. There was quite a lot of people either walking around, standing while talking or sitting and eating the coloured cubes of jelly. I approached an empty table in the corner and took a seat, struggling to sit as my bump was very big. I waited for a few minutes before a robotic-looking woman placed a plate of the ugly translucent blocks down in front of me. I had a frown stuck on my face as I poked the 'food' with my fork. 𝘐 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘦𝘢𝘵, 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘺. I took a long breath in defeat and forced myself to take  a bite. The cold, flavourless substance slid down my throat painfully slowly and made me shiver. When I polished off the rest of the plate, I pushed it further away and gripped my stomach once again, rubbing gentle rotations on it. Out of nowhere, I saw a figure standing in front of me. What stood out was the fact how they where colourful. I looked up and saw an older woman in a pink gown. She smiled at me and spoke. "Can I join you, miss?" I nodded in shock and she took a seat opposite.

"Wait- you're Mamie Eisenhower! I thought I recognised you!" I gazed at her, eyes wide. She smiled with her head tilted slightly downwards making her look quite menacing. "Yes, my dear. That is correct." 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬? 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘪𝘦𝘥, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦? "Why are you here? I mean- this is a fucked up human experimentation centre. What is the wife of a president doing in a place like this?" She exhaled in a slight annoyed way before replying. "Because, they offered to give me immortal life as long as I stayed here for the rest of eternity." I just stared at her in shock, amazement and a little bit of fury. "So you knew what they were going to be doing? But you still let them get away with it?" My voice raised slightly and she seemed to flinch at my unexpected aggression. I closed my eyes and sat back, trying to calm down instead of blowing up at her. 𝘎𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘢 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧. "Dear you must realise there was nothing I could do. My husband, long rest his soul, and me were being blackmailed into agreeing to this- carnage." She seemed genuinely upset and she looked at the floor and finished her sentence. "We had no choice."

I stared at the, now miserable, woman while holding onto my stomach. After a few seconds, I reached other and held her hand softly. She looked up at me and I smiled kindly as I believed her, she smiled back and seemed to cheer up slightly. Then she spoke again. "How long have you been here my love?" I bit my lip and took a deep breath and I thought. The end result being useless. "I have no idea. Got kidnapped in 83, and since then I've lost count of the days, and the years." I frowned and looked back at the sophisticated woman who squeezed my hand slightly. "I'm terrible sorry dear," She looked down at my enormous stomach and placed her free hand on it. "For all of this and for everything you have endured here." I smiled sheepishly as my eyes filled with tears. "It's ok, it's not your fault. Anyways, I'm getting used to it. I hope." I whispered the last sentence but she seemed to hear me.

"I'm sorry honey, but I don't think you are going to get used to it. I don't want to sound hopeless but carrying and delivering those- creatures, will always be painful. Emotionally and physically. I just wish I could stop the pain." She talked and then looked down at my stomach, rubbing it ever so gently. I nodded my head and swallowed before replying. "I know you don't mean any harm by what your saying," A tear fell down my face as I looked back down at my stomach. "𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙞𝙩 𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙝𝙪𝙧𝙩𝙨." At this point tears streamed down my face. Mamie grabbed both my hands and stood me up, pulling me in for a well needed and loving hug. The hug was gentle but it was like the thing I'd been missing for all these sad, lonely years. 𝘉𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘢𝘥 𝘪𝘧 𝘴𝘩𝘦'𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰𝘰.  

a/n - hey yall so idk how to feel abt this one so i hope u enjoyed regardless. have a good day/night, i love you all <33