(I cried writing this chapter yall😭
it's my own book but I cried </3)
tw:// death and intrusive thoughts
continuation of chapter 17, "he's gone"
Bakugo pov:
Did I just hear Aizawa sensei?
Noooo fuck fuck fuck, he wasn't supposed to show up like that. I want to be free and he's going to fuck my chances up again. why the fuck does he have to appear everytime I want to end it? I never even did anything to him so why am I being subjected to the torture of being alive. I don't even have anything to live for-
"Katsuki you have so many things to live for..."
FUCK WAS I MUMBLING OUT LOUD? HE'S HEARD ME NOW SO HE'S GOING TO HATE ME.
I stepped back cautiously as I realised he was coming closer.
"What are you doing here?"
"it's quite cold up here, isn't it katsuki?"
I could see him moving closer but I ignored it for the time being. he isn't that close right now anyways. I'll just stay on gaurd for now.
Tch, it's whatever...
........5 minutes later..........
It had been 5 minutes of pure silence before I decided to speak up. "Hey sensei?" I murmered gently, I could feel tears coming up and my voice cracked a bit but I kept it down.
"Yes Katsuki?"
"Look at the stars, aren't they beautiful?" I heard him hum a little in response before I continued again.
"I usually look a them when I'm feeling extra sad but it seems like these last few years, my neutral feeling has become sad. They remind me of Izuku and the day I had made my promise to him that we would save the world together when we were children. It gave me peace for some time before I was back to my neutral feelings again but for some reason, they aren't working this time.
"They're quite beautiful katsuki, they really are"
I could hear hesitance in his voice but I relaxed my shoulders a bit and continued to look at the stars.
Suddenly, I felt Aizawa's fingers hold my shoulder. My eyes widened and I slapped them away.
Shit! When the fuck did he reach me? And why did I think he was my mom for a second? I thought she was about to beat me up-
I must have looked weak as fuck just then. I bet I looked scared too. No wonder that hag left me, I'm a fucking pussy. I flinched before backing up again, way too close to the edge.
"I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE" I shouted as my feet touched the end of the edge.
"Kid, I'm trying to help, I care about you. I won't do anything to you"
NO! YOU'RE GOING TO TRY TO STOP ME. IF YOU TRULY CARE ABOUT ME THEN LEAVE. ME. ALONE.
No matter what, I will succeed today and not a single shitty extra will stop me. For once I will succeed at doing something right in my shitty life.
"Katsuki please get away from the edge and come to me, we can sort this out. We CAN fix this-"
NOBODY CAN FIX MY SHITTY LIFE OKAY? IM NOT WORTH IT.
Aizawa pov:
I have to save him before he falls. he's too close to the edge. One wrong move and he'll slip. I'm too far away to catch him if he does.
"Kid, you have so much to live for, please just listen to me and we'll talk it out"
I DONT WANT TO TALK ANYMORE, I'M DONE TALKING. I'M TIRED.
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