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Chapter 38--- Time bomb

Hagel's POV

Who came first? the Chicken or the egg??: world's biggest mystery

Sometimes, everything is not as we see it. It could be our little cruel minds playing it's little tricks on us....well that's just the mind.
But what about when your heart sinks?.

Sinks so fucken deep that you feel like you're choking on your own blood.

Jealousy

Possessiveness.

That's what I feel as I watch her lean closer and closer into him.
It's funny how when you least expected it, the one person who has the power to make your world all sunny, can be the very person to crash  it.

That look she had as our eyes connected, tore my heart.
It's in my head
Guilt?
Confusion??
Maybe I am unwanted here.
It's in my head.
I should probably just turn and walk out.
Stop thinking .
But I don't. That Cold, possessive part of me had me rooted to the spot, my face probably devoid of any emotion.

I hope so.

I watch as Jayden pushed back, then smiled at me.
That damn smile that meant he knew he had this moment.
I fist my hands, my eyes laser focused on the two.

" I'll come see you later, Hazel. Catch a rest " Jayden said to the silent Hazel as she nodded to him and even smiled at him.

It's all fine. I'm not some controlling freak. And I can't blow my cool over something as pointless as this.

" Hey"
" Hey" I heard myself reply to Jayden as he purposely brushed his shoulders to mine and walked out, the door shutting silently.
I'm not moving. I'm just looking at her.
Waiting for her to beckon to me.
To do anything, just anything to assure my numb heart that I am the one she wants.
She just looks back at me with no expression on her face.

A second passed. And another.
And when I felt my mind was going to explode, she smiled at me, so wide that it staggered me.

I blinked, just to make sure that I wasn't conjuring it up. But I wasn't.
She was still smiling at me. Her big hazel eyes full and bright.
And as if I'm on auto pilot, my entire system, entire body moves in her direction.

In a flash, she's in my arms and I'm hugging her so tight.
So selfishly tight that I felt I was going to crash her with my muscles.
She fits perfectly as I let myself relax finally.

" Easy tiger" she whispered into my chest with a soft laugh, making me relax.
I pulled back and looked into her eyes.

Oh goodness. This is getting out of hand.
My feelings for her. It's insane.

" I thought you weren't coming "  She said with a little mischief that made me want to pry further, see where they'll lead to.
Fuck, she got me around her little fingers.
And she got me tight.

" Why wouldn't I?"I play along.
" Mmmm, well, I guess I was missing you too much" She replied, eyes gleaming as she bit down her lips, looking all innocent and ....damn those sexy lips.
My eyes are locked on them.

" You miss me? Why" I hear my voice rasp.
" Why not?" She said sassily, smiling innocently at me.

Oh boy, I'm totally trapped.
This woman bothers me a whole fucken lot. Since  day one at the club. Usually I wouldn't want to be bothered, fuck I never got bothered.
But with her, with Hazel, I want to be bothered.

" What are you thinking?" Her little voice asked, bringing me back from my thoughts.
" You brother me, a lot" I can't even recognize my voice. I've never felt this way.
Not even with my first childhood crush.
Never.
" Oh" was all her little savagely inviting lips allowed out.