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Chapter 27---- Hallucinations

Dedicated to @ MhandyKhattie

Hazel's POV

The ride to the theater downtown was filled with a deafening silence. I chanced a glance at Bethany and I realized that she looked composed, calm,even unperturbed, the usual , typical Bethany.

And that annoyed me.
You know, I happen to know Bethany so well, and just right now, like these  past few days, all her calm expressions we're just a facade.
Deep deep down, I know she's angry at me, even maybe despise me for what happened the other night.
But she'd said nothing about it.

When we were kids, I was always getting us in trouble. Mostly Bethany would react for just a minute then just like that, she sinks back into her cool normal self, even taking the blame for the things I did.
Then when I least expected it, she'd do  worst things to me.
Mostly to land me into a bigger trouble.

Of course nobody ever believed me if I tried to say I didn't do shit.
But I soon forget about it and I'm back to my wild self, causing trouble.
Then, I had once thought if it's possible that my sister had a multiple personality disorder.
Funny but that thought had unsettled me for a while .

Looking at her now, I can't help but wonder if I was right back then, if truly Bethany had some dissociative identity disorder.
And it scares me.
She's probably going to do something bad to me.

Seriously?! The fuck is wrong with me? This is my SiSter! Of course she has the right to be mad at me for showing up past midnight in HER husband's shirt!

Maybe I'm the one with the disorder.
Fuck fuck!
Vidal's words is messing with my head.
I can't keep seeing Hagel, I can't hurt my sister like that.

I can't.

To say the pain I'm feeling in my heart right now is excruciating will be an understatement.
Damn, I don't even know what to feel.
Don't I fucken deserve to be happy?!!

" I spoke to Rav, the manager at the theater and he said you can help with the costume management for now but there would be a vacancy for other sections soon and he'll find you a good position" Bethany says in her usual tone, looking at me for just a second.

" Don't you hate me?" I blurted out, causing her to stare at me with blue disbelieving eyes.
" No!, what a silly question" she says, brushing me off.
She's lying. I can see from how her fingers just crossed.

That is nervous Bethany hiding what she really wants to say.
" Come on Beth, I know you. Slapping me wouldn't be enough to forgive me for showing up in Jayden's shirt"

She says nothing, ignoring me as she faced the window.

" Nothing happened. We didn't even kiss. And I'm sorry for leaving with him in the first place"

" I hope you haven't changed your mind about wanting to work in the theater. I remember how you loved to watch those stage dramas. But then again you loved a lot of things" She said.
She ignored my statement. The typical Bethany.

" Bethany...."
" What do you want!" She snapped, startling me, and as if catching herself by surprise, she gasped and covered her mouth.

" I'm sorry Hazel, I didn't..."
" It's fine Beth, you can yell at me all you want. I just wish you'd tell me to my face and not hide it"
That got her. I saw her composure fading as she gripped her fist, her  knuckles whitening.
It's scary. Scary to watch Bethany lose her calm.

She blanched, eyes narrowing into slits.
" I'm mad at you " she started in a surprisingly calm tone, even managing a smile at me.
And just like that, she pushed her anger back....
" But, I understand. I know it must be hard for you to accept everything just like that. But I wish you would. It's done. So please think about Abel before you do something as stupid as that again."

I don't say anything. I let her talk.
I don't recall seeing Bethany like this ever.
Calm and pissed all at once, for she was suddenly looking like she's possessed as she turned her body to me fully, eyeing me from my head down, her face a different shade from just seconds ago.

" I don't get what he sees in you. You're not even that pretty. I gave him everything! But he still wants you. I won't let you steal my happiness this time Reddie."

Reddie?

Outch. A sharp pain stabbed my chest.
That name.
That's how those bullies used to call me back in grade school.
She knew how much that name hurt me, and how much I hated it and she used it on purpose.

I shut my eyes a second and when I opened them, Bethany is back to her usual self.
Fuck she looked as if she hadn't just said all that.
" Oh dear, we'd arrive soon" she chirped and smiled sweetly at me, turning her attention back to the window.

What the...

Maybe I just hallucinated it all.
Maybe I'm going insane.
But godammit I just saw a different person talk just now.
A different person who scares me to the bone.

***†***
I try my possible best to put it behind me.
But I can't.
I still keep replying Bethany's words and how she'd looked like a whole different person in my mind.

We just came to the hospital for my appointment with the doctor and after her words in the car, Bethany seemed just fine.

Maybe I'm exaggerating it all.

" Doc, uhhh is it possible that the injury could cause hallucinations?" Alone with the doctor, I asked.
" Well yes. But your wound is almost completely healed, so you should be able to tell the difference between a memory and reality. You need to be careful more now. You're likely to have some past memories flooding back" he says, examining my head.

" Oh"
" The good news is, in a few months, you wouldn't be feeling the pain as much. Take care "
" Sure, thanks".
He nods as I stood and exited the office.
Bethany was staring intensely at a painting of a mother and a baby on the wall of the waiting room that she didn't even realize I was beside her.

Goddd...

" Hey" I say
" Oh hey, how did it go?" She asked.
" Just fine".
" Sure"

We drove home after grabbing a late lunch.

My head begins to throb so I decided to go to bed as soon as we entered the mansion, only to be faced with Vidal and Jayden, yelling at each other.

Can today get any worse?!.

It can and it did.

Tiana♥️