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40---- Truth

HAZEL'S POV

I steered awake as I felt Hagel unentangled my arms from his chest. I had fallen asleep. But his movements awoken me . Initially, I had wanted to speak but on second thoughts, I decided to pretend.
I laid there still, breathing evenly.
A moment later, I heard the door open and shut quietly.

I stare blankly at the door. It's been moments ago since Hagel sneaked out.
Who is he going after?.
I had to pretend the entire time I was with him so as not to make him suspect I Know what's going on.

I have to run away.

I can't trust anyone. I have to get as far away from everyone as possible.
But... if Hagel is going in search of Jaden, then surely the two were up to something sinister.
Shit shit.
He took the papers he was going through with him.

What's in those papers?

I had so many questions flooding my mind.
My heart was pounding loudly as I freed myself of the hospital garments. Just as I pulled a top over my head, the door opened.

I gasped as fear seized me.
A very confused Hagel stared back at me.
His eyes where confused as he stared from my head to toe. Then realization settled in his eyes.

" What are you doing?" His tone was cold, too cold that it sent ripples of chilling fear up my spine.
Oh God.
I can't believe I fell for such a manipulative liar!.

I swallowed hard, willing my fear now turned nervousness to leave me.
I musterd my I hope is most sweetest smile at him.
His face twitched with hurt, making me laugh nervously

" What are you doing Hazel?" This time, his tone was firm.
" Did Jaden ask you to elope with him?"
Huh? The fuck is he saying?.

" N-no, No" I say, caught off guard at his words, my voice giving me away.
" Then why are you dressing up?".

I have to admit, it hurts my heart at the hurt in his eyes. But I can't trust him.
It's my life and heart at stake and no matter how much I love him, I can't forgive him for hiding the truth from me.

He knew everything from the very start! So what game was he playing?
What game is he playing?

" Oh, the nurse said I'm free to go. So I'm getting ready." Lies, lies.
" Did she?"
" Of course!" I laugh weirdly and proceeded to brush my hands in my messy hair, hoping I don't look obvious.
I turn my back to him as I felt him walk towards me.

" Hazel we have to talk..."
A knock sounded, cutting him off as the nurse stepped in.
" Hi" she smiled broadly.
At this rate, my heart was racing so fast that I almost fainted.
" You're leaving ?" She asked, her face surprised.
" Yeah, you discharged me right?" I prayed to God she wouldn't blow my cover but it didn't work.
" Actually ma'am you can't leave yet, we have to run a test ...."

" I'm taking her home. She's a bit uncomfortable here. I've spoken with the doctor already"

Wait what?. Why is he lying in my defense?God...

" Okay Sir, please sign at the front desk before you leave"
" Will do, thanks"
The nurse blushed, smiling sweetly at him before leaving.

I slap myself mentally at the feeling that tagged at my chest.
He turned to me, his face unreadable.
I hated it, hated that I've been caught. Hated that I have to feel like the liar, when in reality, he was the damn liar.

He turned and walked out.
Disdainfully, I followed.

***†***
The ride back was filled with uncomfortable silence. Silence so thick that it suffocated me.
He was indifferent, his actions stiff, giving nothing away.
I hated it.
The fact that I Know he's a liar and a manipulator.
When we reached the mansion, I hopped out and walked briskly away.

I didn't want to stay and listen to him speak. Listen to more lies.
The heavy footsteps following behind told me that he was right behind me.
I hurried, running.

" Hazel stop!"
I don't.
" Hazel, please!"
I don't.

I gasped as I'm suddenly pulled to a halt, his iron fists caging my writs

" Let me go!" I yell, my anger busting out.
" Hazel listen" his tone wasn't surprised. Meaning he anticipated my reaction, knew I was catching up on all his numerous fallacies!

" Ha, listen? Listen to what exactly Hagel? More lies?? You bloody liar. YOU and everyone else has been lying to my face right from the fucken beginning! Oh God, I can't believe I've so stupid!." My voice betrayed me, breaking as it dropped from high-pitch to low grunts.

To think you didn't want him to find out that you know the truth, way to spoil it Hazel.
Fuck my subconscious, I don't need it now!

Hagel's face said it all. He looked petrified. Like he'd seen a ghost.
" Oh God" I choke, falling back. It's like a heavy blanket just dropped on my head, so heavy it buried me beneath.

It's true.
Everything is damn true

" You're a monster!" I yell, adrenaline rush kicking in. I stepped further back, tears of pain blurring my vision as I stared dead into his consuming eyes.
" Hazel please, let me explain"His face was a display of emotions. Guilt, confusion,hurt... so many emotions played in his eyes as he stared back at me.
Then he suddenly shut his eyes, his Adam's apple working so fast. For what seemed like eternity, he wasn't breathing.

His eyes teared open, the looks in them pleading. But I wasn't going to listen, I was done playing the fool.

" Explain? Explain what?!. You knew everything from the start! Fuck you probably had a hand in me getting shot!"
" God, Hazel no!. Please calm down. It's not good for your health. Let me explain , please." He begged.

The Hagel I know would never beg. But it still doesn't justify him lying to me. He's a bloody liar. And am more pissed at myself for seeing the smallest vulnerability in him in this moment.

I hate myself for feeling all this anger towards him...this anger meant more,it showed how much I've come to trust him, how much his lies break me.... how much I love him.

He tried to reach out his hands to touch me
" Don't you touch me!" I yell. I turned away from him and bloated for the stairs.

I come face to face with Bethany at the stairs. She looked paled, terrified even.
But I couldn't deal with her now. Hagel has won the heartbreak award for the night.
I knew everyone was awake, everyone has probably heard my yells. But I didn't care, I couldn't deal with everyone just now.

I shut my door silently. Am surprised I didn't bang it.
After I turn the lock, I zombie to my bed and lay down, crying my pain out.
No.
I didn't want to cry. Every muscle in my body was begging me to hit something, inflict as much pain as possible on everyone.

But that wasn't me anymore. I'm not that Hazel anymore. Fuck I don't even know what version of myself I am now.
But one thing was constant....this new me was more dangerous, more distractive.
So through my tears and excruciating heart pains, I mutterd to myself.... Everyone involved will pay, I swear it.

Tiana ♥️