Confidence Like A Rockstar

Your a Fighter (Nathan's Point of View)

After the skype call with Anna-May I felt horrible inside. I felt helpless as I wasn't their with her. Half an hour Later I got a call from her mum. Anna-May had self-halmed and she was on the way to hospital. My heart was in my mouth, I just wanted her to be ok. I left the house in such a hurry and set off to the hospital. I had to be at her bedside, at least be there for her. 

Once I arrived, I asked one of the nurses where she was. By then I had told everyone what had happend and they were coming tomorrow to see her. I headed up to her room to see her mum there by her bed side. My beautiful princess had tubes in her arms and blood being put through her with an oxygen mask on her face. Her mum told me she had lost a lot of blood but she would be okay in a few days to my relief. Her mum went home, she looked so tired bless her. I sat down next to Anna-May and started talking to her. Telling her I was here and I wasn't going no where. I sang personal soldier, I'll be your strength and weakness as I stayed by her side. 

By 5 am I was still awake watching over her. Doctors and Nurses had been in and out all night looking at the monitors by her bed and changing the fluids round. They kept telling me to get some sleep but each time I said I wasn't going to rest till I knew she was a wake and ok. 

By 7am I was shattered but thats when I felt a squeeze on my hand that was clasped around my baby's. Soon enough her beautiful bright blue eyes were looking at mine as her eye lids flickered open. To my relief. I wrapped my arms around her as she cried into my shoulder. She constantly said sorry but I knew why she did it but things were going to be so much better for her starting form now. She moved and them patted a space on the bed for me to lay down on and soon enough we were both asleep. 

I woke up at 2 in the afternoon to see Anna-May sleeping on my chest so I knew she was comfy. The doctor soon came and said that she could go home that night. The incisions were not deep so they haven't done any damage but keeping her in was just a way to keep an eye on her. Anna-May soon woke up and we soon set of home, not her mums but mine.Both me and her mum wanted her to be in a safe and comfortable enviroment with no bad memories. 

I walked in with her by my side as I went in to the kitchen to put the kettle on. She kept saying she was sorry but she couldn't think of a way to get out of it. We sat in the living room as she curled up on my chest. We stayed in silence for a few minuites then I spoke. 

"I know your sorry and I know how you feel but this is not the answer, I know that your tutor came to the studio and I know thats your place to reflect and be creative. The school are doing nothing to help you are they and to be honest I think it would be better for you to leave but I also know that you only have a few months left. For me can you cope for a few more months. I will always be a phone call away and I will get a key cut for you so if you need a escape that they don't know about then you can come here. Just text me though first telling me where you are okay You will always have me to talk to and you have created a close family that you will be working with a lot over a long time. Don't be afraid to talk to one of us okay. We are here for you. I love you."

"I love you too Nathan and thank you, your always their for me."

"I always will be" 

We shared a kiss then I got the take away menu's out so we could eat. At 8pm at night Anna-May didn't fancy cooking and I couldn't cook to save his life. We ordered and waited for it to be delivered as she went to get changed. I had left some clothes on the bed for her. I needed to pick some up from hers in the morning and I thought that she needed to leave some here.

She walked downstairs as I had just set the food down on the coffee table so we could eat. She sat down next to me and we ate. 

Once we were finished Anna-May grabbed the TV remote and turned over the channel. I looked at her with my puppy dog eyes as I lunged for the remote. I was careful not to touch her arm that had the bandage on. We fell to the flor in laughing fits as we tickled each other to death to try and get the remote back but then I gave up as I found I was really enjoying it. 

By half 11, she had fallen asleep on my chest. I picked her up and tucked her up in my bed so I knew she was safe. I slipped in next to her and got some sleep. I needed to be up early to get some of her things. One thing I found that night with her was that she is a fighter and she wont stop fighting.

I woke up quite early in the morning (I know i'm up early shock right) to go and get some of my princesses things. I left her sleeping in my bed but I did use it as a chance to get some sneaky pictures because it's not very often I get to do this. I left a note saying I was just going to get some clothes for her so she had something and that I wouldn't be long. 

Once there, her mum asked me all the questions like, is she ok? Did she sleep fine? Where is she now? I happily answered as she had the right to know but I also said that for today I wasn't going to force her into school, she needed the break. Well thats what I thought?

When I walked into my flat Anna-May was stood on the stairs waiting for her clothes. I will never forget how hot she looked in my clothes. She got changed and came down stairs, in her uniform. She just basically said, "It's my last year I can't afford to miss it because of some stupid kids who can't get over themselves."

I kissed her on the cheek and drove her to school. We said goodbye and she went through the gates. I reflected back to my thoughts of last night and I was right, she is a fighter.