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My Gender

I finally figured it out!! I have a half-feminine, half-masculine gender identity but a mostly feminine gender expression, and I only truly had gender dysphoria while I was doubting my sexuality. (I had Criterion A of child gender dysphoria for as long as I can remember, but I was proud of it, and I don't actually meet criteria for the adolescent/adult version since I wouldn't say I have a full second criterion of A. Thus, with time, I'm sure I can get back to being proud about being a tomboy.)

But you know, I thought I cosplayed Kaneki and Deku just because I liked them, and I didn't have to wear a wig. But back in elementary school, we were supposed to be a historical figure or something for a project, and I wanted to be Jesus. I probably chose that simply because I didn't know any other historical figures, but I really doubt that I'd want to be a female figure anyway. (Unfortunately, my teacher said I couldn't be Jesus, so she suggested some author, and I just went with the guy, having absolutely no idea who he was. I would later make the connection that he was probably the president, Harry Truman.)

On my games, too, I play male characters. I thought that was because I was just used to it after 3 Rune Factory games having no female option, but... now I've done that for Harvest Moon/Story of Seasons and even Pokemon. The only reason I do the female (when able) in other accounts is really just because I wanna date the guys....

And if I had the choice to form my body however I wanted, I probably would choose short hair (just long enough for pigtails :3 - Although I like really long hair, too, it's hard to manage, so I'd rather have it as just long enough for pigtails) and a male reproductive system, but I would occasionally wear dresses and skirts, and I don't really care about my chest. (I might just choose a flat one simply because it's more convenient lol - less in the way.) So although I'm mostly fine with my appearance being feminine, I guess my preferred gender expression would be a little less than half-male.

Then with gender identity, it's really complicated because you have to take into account mental, physical, and social feeling. For example, I've always said I'm boyish, like boyish things, etc., but I'm also emotional and a total romantic. However, I'm fine with my physical body and with being a girl socially. I also don't really care if people call me he or she.

But so that y'all can figure it out yourselves if you're questioning, here's the DSM 5 Criteria for Gender Dysphoria:

In Children:

A. A marked incongruence between one's experienced/expressed gender and assigned gender, of at least 6 months' duration, as manifested by at least six of the following (one of which must be Criterion A1)
1. A strong desire to be of the other gender or an insistence that one is the other gender (or some alternative gender different from one's assigned gender).
2. In boys (assigned gender), a strong preference for cross-dressing or simulating female attire; or in girls (assigned gender), a strong preference for wearing only typical masculine clothing and a strong resistance to the wearing of typical feminine clothing.
3. A strong preference for cross-gender roles in make-believe play or fantasy play.
4. A strong preference for the toys, games, or activities stereotypically used or engaged in by the other gender.
5. A strong preference for playmates of the other gender.
6. In boys (assigned gender), a strong rejection of typically masculine toys, games, and activities and a strong avoidance of rough-and-tumble play or in girls (assigned gender), a strong rejection of typically feminine toys, games, and activities.
7. A strong dislike of one's sexual anatomy.
8. A strong desire for the primary and/or secondary sex characteristics that match one's experienced gender. (Note: From context, I believe that this simply refers to initial sex characteristics and those developed during puberty.)

B. The condition is associated with clinically significant distress or impairment in social, school, or other important areas of functioning.

In Adolescents and Adults:

A. A marked incongruence between one's experienced/expressed gender and assigned gender, of at least 6 months' duration, as manifested by 2+ of the following:
1. A marked incongruence between one's experienced/expressed gender and primary and/or secondary sex characteristics (or in young adolescents, the anticipated secondary sex characteristics).
2. A strong desire to be rid of one's primary and/or secondary sex characteristics because of a marked incongruence with one's experienced/expressed gender (or in young adolescents, a desire to prevent the development of the anticipated secondary sex characteristics).
3. A strong desire for the primary and/or secondary sex characteristics of the other gender.
4. A strong desire to be of the other gender (or some alternative gender different from one's assigned gender).
5. A strong desire to be treated as the other gender (or some alternative gender different from one's assigned gender).
6. A strong conviction that one has the typical feelings and reactions of the other gender (or some alternative gender different from one's assigned gender).

B. The condition is associated with clinically significant distress or impairment in social, school, or other important areas of functioning.