Kai.
It had been 2 weeks since that night happened and I've been here at the last place anybody would ever think to look for me. My old apartment. I told East that I gave it up and returned the keys but that was always a lie. I just felt like I would need a back up plan if things ever went south between me and East. It was uncomfortable as hell sleeping on the floor because it was empty as hell in here but I didn't care.
I went to the doctor last week and found out that I was a few months pregnant. I hadn't talked to a soul I just needed time to myself. I knew they were all worried about me but I just couldn't deal with anybody right now. My mind was all over the place, my feelings were hurt and I didn't know rather I was coming or going.
I tried to hate my mother but my heart just wouldn't let me. I understood why she did what she did but at some point she should have told me the truth.
I didn't have my phone which was a good thing because I didn't want anybody getting in contact with me. But I did buy me another one and I also brought me a few things from target just until I was ready to go back home. As I sat there in the middle of the floor I brought my knees to my chest and just rocked myself back and forth thinking about all the bullshit I've endured in my life. And everything that has ever hurt me resulted in death. First the man who I thought was my father was supposedly dead and I mourned for him my whole life. Then Kane, then Nari and Naeem. Ken is dead as well as Capo and Kareem. The one thing all those deaths had in common was East. The phone that I brought had rung so I answered it.
Hello
Hello this is Anna from family Planning, may I speak with Kaisha Covington.
This is she.
Hello Kaisha, I was just calling to confirm your 3:45 appointment for today. Will you still be coming?
Yes, I'll be there.
Ok we'll see you at 3:45.
Ok I said then hung up the phone.
I didn't want to kill my baby, but I felt like there was no other choice. I couldn't bring my baby into all this bullshit. Naeem, Tuck and Ken may have all been dead, but who's to say there aren't other enemies lurking in the shadows.
After much debate I made up in my mind that I should call East and at least let him know about the decision I made. I picked the phone back up then dialed his number, he answered on the second ring.
Who is this?
I took a deep breath before I spoke.
It's me.
Kai, Ma where you at ? Let me come get you. You good ?
East, please shut up and listen.
Once he was quiet I started back talking.
East, please understand that I didn't come to this decision lightly, but I feel like right now it's not the best time for us to bring a baby into this world.
Kai what the fuck are you saying to me right now.
East I'm going to have an abortion.
No the fuck you not, Kai you scared you done been through some shit since you've been back, but our baby is a fresh start. I don't have anymore niggas coming at me so you don't have shit to worry about, we gone be good ma I promise.
You can't promise me that and mean it. The shit you do there always be people coming at you. I can't risk my child's life like that.
Our, it's not just your child Kai, it's ours, so I get a say in this shit too.
