East
Nine fucking months, that's how long it's been since I've talked to or seen Kai. This time felt worse than before which was wild as hell to me because the first time she left for five years. I still couldn't believe that she laid on an operating table and killed my seed. That alone let me know that she never really loved me, because if she did she would have never did no ho shit like that.
East do you want something to eat?
Nah, I'm good. I'm bouta shoot a couple moves.
So that means you can't eat?
That mean I got something to do. Getting up from the bed I went into the bathroom to take a shower and brush my teeth. I was in my closet looking for something to put on when I noticed some shit in my closet that shouldn't be there.
Ausha
Yea
What the fuck is this about ?
What? It's my jacket.
I know what it is, why is it in this closet?
Because it's a $600 jacket and I wanted to hang it up.
So why you ain't put it in the other closet, I told you don't put nothing in here.
Why East? Because her stuff is still in here. She's been gone for 9 months, why won't you just move her stuff out of here?
Because this is her fucking house.
Oh really, well where she at? Because the last time I checked I've been living in this house for the last four months, cleaning it, cooking and fucking you but it's her house.
Ay im not bouta debate with yo ass. Just get the shit I said tossing it to her.
You know what, your a asshole and im sick of it. You walk around mad at the whole fucking world because Kaisha left your ass.
Don't say her fucking name.
Don't tell me what to say. Why even be with me if this gone be how you act. The only time your ass is a tad bit nice is when you shoving yo dick down my throat or bending me the fuck over, and quite frankly I'm sick of it. I haven't did shit to you so therefore your not about to keep doing me like I ain't shit.
I just told you I'm not about to do this with you. Ain't nobody twisting you by your arm and making you stay here. If you feel like a nigga such an issue for you leave.
I just might she said walking out of the room. I snatched a shirt off the hanger causing one of Kai's purses to fall. When I picked it up something fell out. I reached down to pick it up and it was a positive pregnancy test. I stood there just looking at the words "pregnant" . What the fuck had I done so bad that she didn't want to keep our baby. Something that we made out of love. I couldn't help but to think about what Ken said, " you'll never be good enough" is that what the fucking issue was, she didn't feel like a nigga was good enough to have a family with. Kai always wanted to point out my flaws but never wanted to acknowledge her own. She was soft. Anytime the pressure was too much she ran. She never fought for us as hard as I did. How the fuck could she say she loved me and then just up and disappear. When she left before she basically didn't have a choice. But that wasn't the case this time. Her mother couldn't make her do shit, she was a grown ass woman and she chose to run on her own.
I grabbed something threw it on then left the house. I needed a drink so I stopped by the liquor store and grabbed me a bottle. I didn't even wait until I pull off, I cracked that bitch open right in the parking lot inside my car. After about two big shots I went inside my arm rest and grabbed two percs and knocked them bitches back with another shot of the liquor.
