Des
Within this last year my life was finally feeling like it was back on track. I've lost a child, a best friend, the love of my life and myself. But I didn't let any of that break me. God knew I wasn't ready for a baby so he did what he thought was best. I questioned him a lot for taking Nari but in due time I've come to accept that she's gone. It isn't easy and I have my days but I'm beyond thankful for all of the years that she was in my life. Nothing is official with Mook but we have an understanding, he hurt me to my core but I couldn't let that shit break me either. My mama always told me to never give a man your all because if he leaves your left with nothing. I didn't understand that back then but I do now. I love Mook but I can never love him with everything in me again because if I do I won't have enough love for myself and the one thing I promised myself was to never lose sight of who the fuck I was again. These niggas come a dime a dozen but there's only one me, I know what kind of woman I am and a nigga will live a hundred lifetimes before he ever finds another me. I know that Yaya is upset at Kai for leaving but those weren't my feelings behind the situation, everybody deals with things differently and if Kai thought that leaving was her only option then I'm glad she did what was best for her. I just hope that she's safe and doing what she needs to do to get herself together. I would love for her to at least call but if she's not ready then it is what it is.
I was currently at my moms chilling. She was in Jamaica and she had some packages being delivered today and asked me could I sign for them for her. I haven't seen Yayas ass in a minute and she told me that she was going to pull up so I was waiting on her to do so.
The front doorbell rung so I got up and went to open it. It was the delivery man so I signed for the packages.
Your all set have a nice day.
Thank you, you too.
I was getting ready to close the door when I saw Yaya pulling up so I left it open. A few moments later she came through the door talking shit per usual.
Girl what are you yelling for?
That delivery driver had me fucked up, just gone sit there knowing I was trying to park. I told his ass if he don't move that truck the next thing that was gone be delivered was his body to the morgue.
You always gotta go from 0 to 100, did you have to threaten that man's life?
That man shouldn't be playing with me. You play with me I play with yo life, simple. Now what's all this she asked referring to the packages.
I don't know some stuff mama ordered. I'm hungry you tryna go eat?
Yea come on.
Me and Yaya argued for damn near an hour before we finally agreed on where to eat at. Parking the car we got out and went into the restaurant.
A table for two I told the hostess and she took us to a small booth. Here are your menus a waitress will be with you shortly.
Thank you I said giving her a warm smile then she walked away.
So what's been up with you I asked her as I looked over the menu.
Nothing much, slowly trying to get things back on track with Rico.
What's wrong with Rico?
We got into it bad and he moved out.
Yo ass know you be keeping tea about you to yourself. What did y'all get into it about?
I basically was accusing him of cheating then I might've said a few things about Sianni.
You might've?
