Kai
I haven't seen East since the other night. I ended up telling Nile's that I wasn't feeling well so he didn't have to come over. Of course that raised a lot of red flags for him but he eventually gave in. I could tell that East was hurt but he just didn't want to understand where I was coming from. Instead of hearing me out he turned back to his cold vicious self. Hearing him say I was dead to him hurt the same way it did back then when I first left New York if not worse. I felt like everything I was trying to protect my daughter from was happening anyway right before my eyes. Not only did he want an issue with me but he wanted one with Ali as well. I've been in touch with him long enough to know that he isn't shit to play with and I don't think I could handle anymore bad shit happening. Ali was my father at the end of the day and East was my daughters father. We were technically all family but knowing East he wouldn't look at it like that. He'll look at Ali as the man who took me and his daughter away instead of what it really was which was keeping us safe. Ali and East were one in the same rather they knew it or not. I didn't even know where to begin with this whole situation.
Someone knocked on the front door so I got up. Kaiari was in her swing and we were sitting on the patio so I went to open it. When I did there East stood.
Hey.
Can I see her?
Yea come in, she's on the patio in her swing.
I walked behind East as he went to the patio. He carefully picked her up then sat in one of the chairs I had out here. I sat in my original spot and just watched the two of them. It was hurting me bad to know that he hated me. I tried to sit there quietly for as long as I could.
East
Not right now Kai.
I watched him as he got up then handed down the steps of the patio and walked to the mini beach that sat behind my house. He didn't even want to talk to me and there was nothing I could do about it. He and Kaiari set out there for hours while I just sat in the same spot alone. I needed to do something with myself so I decided to go into the kitchen wash her bottles and take something out to cook. I had been in the kitchen for a while and they were now coming in. Kaiari was now knocked out on his bare chest and he had his shirt wrapped around his head looking like a damn Israeli. He came into the kitchen and my baby had the nerve to be snoring.
Oh little girl you tired huh.
Can I take her for awhile?
East I don't know.
What don't you know? I ain't you I ain't gone disappear with her and leave you here stuck.
His smart remark hurt but I played it cool. I didn't say that you were going to do that East.
Then what don't you know? I'll have her back before it gets too late. I just wanna spend some time by myself with her.
I was skeptical for a minute but I eventually agreed to it, after all he was her father. I'll pack her a bag. I went to the back and grabbed all the things I thought she would need then went back into the kitchen and got her a few bottles. Here I said handing him the bag. The water and milk are already measured, all you have to do is pour the milk inside then shake it up.
Do she suck a pacifier?
She has one but she really only wants it if she's sleepy. I put it in the bag. Let me see her. He handed her over to me and I kissed her waking her up. You leaving mommy I told her running my fingers through her curls. All she did was smiled at me.
I'll walk y'all out so you can get her car seat out my car. Once he had it secured he put her bag in then turned around to face me. Mommy loves you and I'll see you later I told her kissing her little lips. I placed her in her car seat and made sure she was strapped in then closed the door.
