East
I've spent the last 5 months cooped up in this house sleeping on the couch in my man cave. I've became addicted to pain killers and I've also convinced myself to hate every last person walking this earth. I didn't trust a soul and I didn't want anyone around me.
That night I was shot 5xs. Once in the neck, twice in my side, once in my hand and once in my knee. One of the bullets in my side nicked my spinal cord and I was damn near paralyzed for 3 months. I went from a wheelchair to a walker and now a damn cane. I couldn't tell you what was going on with my business because I didn't give a fuck. I couldn't tell you what was going on with my niggas because I didn't give a fuck about them either.
For the first couple of months Kai tried her best with me but all I did was pushed her away, now all she does is leave food and a change of clothes outside the door for me. I haven't physically seen her in almost two months. For all I know she got a nigga living upstairs and honestly like I've stated multiple times before, I don't give a fuck.
Those demons that I fought so hard to bury were back with a vengeance and they had took control of me. I felt vulnerable, hopeless and lost as hell. This last year in a half mfs was coming for me from every angle and they managed to dethrone me. I was no longer the king of New York, I was no fucking body.
A few lite knocks came from the door and it was a little after 11a.m so I knew it was Kai bringing me something to eat and clothes so I could shower. I grabbed my phone and opened the camera that was on the thumb print pad that was used to unlock the door. I watched her as she just stood there for a few seconds with the stuff in her hand. Once she noticed I wasn't coming to the door she sat the stuff down and walked away. After she did I grabbed my cane got up and walked to the door and opened it. As best as I could I bent down and tried to grab the food first but stopped because a sharp pain pierced my side causing me to clutch over in pain. I took a few deep breath's before I tried to do it again when Kai appeared back at the door.
Let me help you.
I don't need no fucking help.
From where I'm standing you look like you need a lot of fucking help.
Man fuck that shit. I went to close the door back but she stuck her foot in the door.
Move yo fucking foot so I can shut the door Kai.
She didn't budge.
My side was killing me and the more I stood there the more pain I began to feel. Not even wanting the food anymore I slowly walked back towards the couch and eased myself down.
How long are you going to act like this?
Act like what?
LIKE THIS! A stubborn asshole. You've been cooped up in here for months. You just said fuck everybody and fuck life. You can't keep pushing everybody away like this East.
I'm laid up in this bitch shot the fuck up in pain every second of the day and you think I give a fuck about anybody? Fuck everybody!
So it's fuck me too huh?
I didn't even bother to answer her question.
Wow, I can't believe you. I been busting my ass for these last few months trying to make sure that your still on top of your shit. Doing shit I've never in my life thought that I would do. Hell not even just me. Mook, Rico and Capo still been out there too, everybody been making moves having your back but it's fuck us.
What the fuck could you possibly be doing to help me with the shit that I got going on? Huh tell me that.
Yo ignorant ass has absolutely no idea. For starters your distributors have been meeting with me. With the help of Mook and Rico I've been keeping them niggas supplied with work, I even got that weird ass nigga Mez back on board and copping work. Your club is bringing in more money and getting more buzz in these last 3 months then you've managed to do in the 2 1/2 years that you've had it opened. Derrick Rose had his birthday party at Envy and since then all the big shots have been trying to book their parties at your shit. Julius Randle had his party there too. Envy is a big fucking deal now thanks to me. I'm out here making all kinds of moves to make sure our future is straight while yo ass is sitting down here rotting away. When what the hell you need to be doing is getting your shit together and getting back to your old self and take the reigns back of your city. Life isn't over for you East, niggas tried to kill you but they didn't, your still here get off yo ass so you can find these niggas take them out and get on with life. You said you was the king, well this is what comes with this shit.
