How To Save A Life: A Louis Tomlinson FanFiction

Chapter 47: Correction

Eliza's POV:

I watched all the color drain from Louis's face. The stadium was almost completely silent. It was at first, but a few fans had begun to scream "boo" at my response. They, however, were the outcasts. Mostly the fans were shocked, and the few that weren't shocked or "booing", were looking around nervously and awkwardly. I guess I could understand, what are you supposed to do when you are standing and watching a rejected proposal? You don't really learn the answer in school, there is no Proposal Rejection 101 class. I looked over at the other boys. Their faces were the same, yet completely different. They all looked shocked. No one was expecting this response, not even I. But the shock was different for each. Liam looked almost angry along with shocked. I suppose he was mad at me breaking Louis's heart in that moment. Niall... Niall looked hurt and terrified. Terrified of what this meant for Louis and I. For what it meant for our friend group... our family. I tore my glance from him, glancing at Zayn. Zayn's face was confusing, a bit. He seemed understanding, yet confused on what he needed to understand. He didn't hate me for my answer, he believed there must be a reason for it, he just couldn't see the reason. But Harry's... Harry's face was by far the worst of the four boys. He showed anger, confusion, sadness, and... pensiveness. He just stared at me... trying to figure me out... trying to understand... and then he just nodded, as if he understood. But I didn't. I understood each reaction, because I was feeling them all. I was confused by my own answer, what was I doing?

I finally, terrified, looked back at Louis. I take back what I said about Harry's face being the worst, Louis's had beaten him by... by far... His face looked resigned, horrified, saddened, worried, and a thousand other emotions. And the depressing part was... I understood each reason behind each emotion. And I realized why I had said what I said. And it was a terrible reason.

Maybe it was because he was so bold as to ask me in front of thousands of people, but it made me feel bold with my response... a response I immediately regretted. "I was kidding, Louis." Tears began to run down my face. It felt like an eternity standing up there, looking at everyone's faces, but it was really only seconds, I found out later, watching a tape of the proposal, regretfully. "I'm so sorry, Lou. Oh God, I'm so sorry. That was so insensitive. I just... I was watching you propose and I was nervous and I did the first thing that came to mind. And that just shows that I  am a terrible person. I thought to myself 'Wouldn't it be funny if, since Lou was so bold as to ask me to marry him, I was so bold to say no just to freak him out a bit, and to get back at him for making me so nervous in front of so many people?' And it wasn't, and it was awful, and I get if you- if you don't want me because it was really awful and I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. Oh fuck, I am so sorry Lou. What have I done?  I wasn't thinking, I never am. You shouldn't have ever sat next to me on those swings, should have never even have given me a second glance. You should have followed your dreams and married some perfect girl who deserves you and-" And in that moment, Louis unfroze from his horrified glance, and kissed me.

And this kiss was my favorite kiss of all. It was nothing you dream of and everything you should be dreaming of. It was urgent, but soft. And loving, and breath-taking, and reassuring, and heart-racing, and calming, and a thousand other indescribable adjectives. It was perfect. "You're right. I'm not marrying a girl who deserves me." My heart dropped, confusion sweeping my face. Was that to be a goodbye kiss? "I'm marrying a girl who deserves better."

And at last, the crowd screamed and sighed and jumped up and down. And I just smiled stupidly. I could have seen Niall running up to us to hug us, and Liam stopping him to give us a second to enjoy our moment, only for Zayn to sprint past them and tackle us, leading the rest to follow. I could have seen their smiling faces as they realized how happy they were for the two people who were family. I could have noticed Harry's head pop up from our dog pile/hug on the ground and smile goofily out at the fans, laughing "Th-th-th-tha-tha-tha-that's all folks!" in true Porky the Pig fashion. I could have noticed the stage go black after that sentence and fans beginning to scream. But instead, I all I noticed was the smile on my fiance's face, a happiness I had never seen before. I felt him whisper in my ear, "You know, you will never stop owing me for that moment. I wanted to die. But we gotta make sure that our daughters do that to all the boys that propose to them. Damn, it'll be hilarious."

"I wanted to die. I kept thinking, "the fuck did I just say? Am I trying to ruin my life? Who even comes up with such an evil idea? I am the devil. And then I saw your face, and I knew that I needed to tell the truth because I couldn't stand your heart-broken face for a second longer. I couldn't stand the feeling of... of everything importance draining away... And I am so sorry."

"It will be a story to tell the kids. Honestly, Bells, I'm glad you did it. Not at the time, and really, I'm still recovering. But it was you, it was your sarcasticness and attitude, and I wouldn't want it any other way. I love you, Elizabella. I would be honored to just be in the same universe as you, and to marry you is... better than... greater.... I don't know words, dammit, it's just a huge honor, okay?" And I blushed, honored to love such a man. No... not honored to love him. Everyone loved him.... honored to be loved...to be loved by Louis Tomlinson.

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A/N: Did the 3 month wait add some type of dramaticness to the story? Was the chapter worth the build up? Are you happy with it? IS IT OKAY? ARE YOU OKAY? Okay? okay. Maybe okay should be our always. And I haven't even read that book recently. But for real, did you like it? Would you like an epilogue? I don't know how great it would be, but I can do it... You guys look real nice today. Real nice. This was fun. Lets have this chat again sometime. I love you guys. As always, sorry about the wait. Whats up with your lives? Anything interesting to tell me? Anything not interesting to tell me? Fun facts? Hopes? Dreams? Life tips? Life tip: Watch the unbreakable Kimmy Schmit on netflix. It's excellent. 

This was fun, it was nice. Love yall!

Gretchen

PS: to be clear, i didn't reread what I wrote before writing this chappie, so if something doesn't make sense to you, it probably doesnt make sense to anyone. Please comment with these nonmaking sense things so that I can fix them. okayyyyy, byeeee