How To Save A Life: A Louis Tomlinson FanFiction

Chapter 40: Avoiding You...

Eliza's POV:

It been two days since Louis had ran out of the room, saying he'd tell me whatever he was thinking quote "later". I hadn't really spoken to him since. I guess we had different definitions of 'later'... I was actually starting to get pissed off. I try not to get angry easily, and honestly, I don't really judge people... I honestly really try to be kind to people no matter how terribly mean they are, and I don't get pissed at them no matter how much they use me. So I think I kind of scared my friends with my temper.

Niall was telling me about his day, and I just snapped. "I don't care, Niall! I honestly couldn't care less! Shut up!" I screamed, and everyone just kind of froze.

I felt two hands rest on my shoulder, suddenly massaging me. "Hey, you alright, mate?" Harry asked. Tears ran down my face, and I groaned. I was just so frustrated. To the point where screaming wouldn't help, so I just cried.

"Where the hell is he? I see him twice the past two days, and he either sprints from the room, or is on the phone, and walks away. He's avoided me for two days. Two fucking days." Everyone just took a step away from me. They'd never seen me like this. The only fucking person who knew what to do with my problem was the fucking problem... "I just got beat cancer, and he fucking avoids me?! Like what the hell is that?" I looked to Liam, as he left the room. Niall busied himself with cleaning. Since when did Niall clean.

"I- uh... got to go help... Liam, yeah Liam... with.... uh.... with something...." Zayn said, rushing from the room. Harry started to follow him.

"Hold up. HARRY DON'T YOU DARE FUCKING TAKE ANOTHER STEP OUT OF THIS ROOM. GET YOUR ASS BACK IN HERE." Harry backpeddled into the room, sad he was the one to be called back.

"Yes, Eliza?" He asked wearily.

"I know you all know what is going on. I just wanna know... I just want to know... He's been so distant.... What if he found someone new?..." I asked, hurting just thinking about it.

"You don't trust him?!" Harry asked, surprised.

"NO! I trust him. I trust him one hundred percent. I just... I just don't trust myself. I don't trust myself to be good enough for him. Haz. He sees all these girl, who love him so much, and are so much prettier, and nicer, and..." I started to cry. "and so much less complicated. I have all these problems and he constantly has to solve them all. I'm scared one day, he'll wake up and realize how he deserves so much better, because he deserves so much better... so much better, Haz.... I trust him to not cheat on me. I just feel like when he realizes that he has so many better choices, that he either will break up with me because of course he won't cheat, or he won't have the heart to leave me, because he's so sweet, and just be stuck with me... Why won't he just talk to me? That's all I wanna know right now..."

Harry gave me a sad look. "It's not my place to tell you what's going on... But it's nothing like that, Eliza... He loves only you. It's a surprise... I guess.... I can, though, talk to him. And let him know how you feel... Get him to talk to you..." He gave me a soft smile.

"No, please, don't. Don't tell him, it was stupid. I'm fine. Thanks though. I will just wait for him. I guess he'll have to tell me what's going on eventually... I gotta go apologize to them. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to curse at you, Haz. I was just so flustered..."

Harry smiled, nodding.

I walked into the other room, and the other three boys were on the coach, talking. "I'm sorry, guys. I really didn't mean to freak out on you... I was so upset, and I try not to curse, and I just snapped. And especially you, Niall. I really do care about your day..." I started to cry again, feeling terrible. "I really do! I love hearing about your day! I was just so upset, and... and... I didn't mean to! I-" Suddenly I was smashed into a hug by four boys.

"Love, it's alright!" Liam said. "You just never really have outbursts like that, we were just really taken by surprise... A bit scared, yeah, but mostly surprised. If we hadn't been like frozen there, I'd probably burst out laughing at your outburst, it was quite funny how the goody goody cursed..." I punched him lightly, and hugged him, thankful he forgave me. The other boys nodded.

"I really am sorry, Niall." I said, wiping away my tears. "I would love to hear about your day now.." I half-heartedly smiled. He jumped onto me, wrapping his arms and legs around me, shouting, "KOALA HUG!" I laughed, hugging him back, taking it that he accepted my apology, (I hope you remembered the koala hug from forever ago...idk which chappie...)

"Well, I gotta go to the store, I'm making brownies with chocolate bars in them, wanna help, Ni?" I asked, using Nichole's nickname for him. His smile widened. 

"I know you're just doing this because you still feel bad, but I really want brownies,so YEAHHHHH!!!!!!!!" Niall screamed. 

I laughed, "You know me so well..." And so we walked to the store. I love walking. 

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Louis's POV:

It was terrible avoiding Bells for two days, especially because she just beat cancer. But it was for a good cause, right? I am terrible at keeping secrets... Let me rephrase that. I am terrible at keeping secrets from Eliza, everyone else, I was perfect at it. I mean, they might be able to tell I'm hiding something, but never can they figure out what... And anyways, I really wanted to surprise Bells, and if I went near her, she'd immetiatly be able to figure out what was going on... I walked into the house, making sure Bells didn't see me.

"Hello?" I said, after not seeing anyone.

"Hi." I heard a voice right behind me. And of course, like anyone does in a scary situation, I swung my leg around, hitting whoever was behind me.

"Uf! Louis! What the hell?!" The person said. I looked down to see Harry on the floor, balled up, in pain.

"Oh... whoopsee... My baaaadd...." I stiffled a laugh.

"Yeah, your bad! That hurt, jackass!"

""Jackass', eh? Look who's a cool kid..." I said, raising an eyebrow.

"Whatever. I need to talk to you."

"What are we doing now, skipping?..."

"Ha. Very funny. Listen, you're freaking Eliza out. She's scared that you might leave her, because of you avoiding her. She freaked out this morning, cursing at Niall and me... Which while very entertaining, also isn't a good sign for her. You need to tell her what you're doing, mate...."

"I will! I will! I feel terrible, mate. I really do. But I just... I just want the plan to be perfect, you know? Listen, I'm going to use your apartment for a few days. You can use the guest bedroom here. I won't be back for a few days, to plan out everything, but I will tell her after that....Will you give her this note?..." I asked, and after he nodded, I ran out the door, so many things to plan out...

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A/N: First, pardon my language, but holy shit! What the hell, guys?! This is insane!!!!! Chapter 40?! I honestly can't believe it!!!! For real, I didn't expect to get past chapter four.... You guys are crazy!!!! And, as I type this, I have a total of 20,329 reads on my story! I can't believe you guys! Thank you so much for reading and sticking with me through this all! I know I can get annoying with not updating for weeks, so thanks for not getting pissed at me! I am honestly so happy right now, and I don't know how to thank you enough, unless I went and visited you all personally and gave you gift baskets, but I don't have enough money for that.... I love you all so much! 

Second, you guys are the best. I really think you need to know that. I read fanfics on Wattpad, too, and on each one I've read, I've seen at least one obnoxious, or rude comment. And I can honestly say I have not gotten a single hateful comment. You guys are the best greatest readers ever, and I honestly love you all... Thank you so much!

Third, yes this chappie is short. I apologize. I have been at soccer 24/7. But lucky for you guys, I sprained my ankle today, and it swelled to twice it's normal size, so I probably won't be going to soccer tomorrow, in which case, I will be writing all day tomorrow and updating tomorrow night. However, if it miracuously heals, I have no idea when I will be able to update next... Love ya! xxx

-Gretchen