How To Save A Life: A Louis Tomlinson FanFiction

Chapter 23: When Everything Goes Wrong...

Eliza's POV:

If I'd just have forgiven him, it was obviously a mistake. He was angry... If I just forgave him, kept dating him... listened to my head not my heart... He's not perfect, did he deserve to die because of it, no. It was my fault.

"I don't know any perfect people, only really, really flawed people who are worth loving." That was one of my favorite quotes, by John Green. He was right. Lou was flawed but worth loving.. How couldn't I realize that, why'd I walk away? Maybe he'd still be alive if I did.

Stop. Don't think that. He could live. He WOULD live. We were in the ambulance, Lou knocked out. He had blood all over him, and it was my fault. I think there's something to be said for loving a love so strong, your scared to stay. I guess that's the main reason I left. I was scared by how much I loved him, his comment was just an excuse to run away before I loved him too much, but it was already too late. Truly, madly, deeply, I am, foolishly, completely falling in love with him. Heck, I'd already fallen.

I knew, as I said before that I didn't leave because of Lou's comment. I realized something a long time ago about love. Love is all about trust. If you don't trust someone to love you as much as you love them, then you're better off without them. I trusted Lou, so that meant that I knew he loved me back. He'd never hurt me on purpose.

"We receive the love we think we deserve." Another quote, from The Perks Of Being A Wallflower. I didn't deserve his love, why'd I receive it? Maybe if we never met, he'd be alive, he'd be happy and alive....

I wished he'd live. I wished, wished, wished. I pulled out an eyelash, blowing it, and wished he'd live. But as John Green said, "The world is not a wish-granting factory." Wow, I was just full of quotes, unfortunately, they weren't helping.

I watched as Lou's chest rose and fell, maybe for the last few times. And with that, I broke down, sobbing. The paramedic looked at me, eyes filled with pity. I already explained to the police what happened, and somehow, they knew I was telling the truth...

I was to be brought to the hospital, too be checked out. I said I was fine, but I didn't argue when they said it was the only way that I'd be able to go with Lou... I hated hospitals, they terrified me, ever since I was born...

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Lou's POV:

(YEAH, he has a POV!)

My eyes fluttered open, and I looked around. I was in a white room, a.... hospital, maybe? I looked at my clothes, yep, definitely a hospital... Why was I...then the memories came flooding back to me... Maybe this wasn't a hospital at all, maybe it was heaven...

You know, for God to have all those centuries, or however long, to decorate heaven, he didn't have very good taste... it looked identical to a hospital... The door opened, and in came a man, it was GOD! Wow, no wonder God decorated the place like a hospital, he was dressed just like one... I guess it was a part time job... He also looked quite young, as if he were only in his late 20's...

"The girl, Eliza, she wanted to be here with you, but of course, we couldn't permit it..." He said, looking me over.

"Well of course she couldn't, she can't come to heaven if she's still alive!" I said. Wow, God must think I'm an idiot... He looked at me, confusion clear on his face, then he burst out laughing. Wow, I thought he was supposed to be all perfect, it was kinda mean to laugh at me....

"I-I'm..haha... this is a hospital...haha... not heaven..." He said, holding his sides, laughing. Whoops... I was an idiot... wait, if this was a hospital... then... then I'm still alive...

"Can she come see me now?" I asked, and he frowned, hesitant.

"I don't know if that's a good idea.. I'm not supposed to say this but you should know.... She was born with-" He started, and Bell rushed into the room.