R O N I ,
what did I do to deserve this?
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you.
oh baby God to my love from me..
"Come on Roni..it's time to go.." Nessy grabbed my arm.
It's hard for me to tell you I love you, As I'm standing over your grave and I know that I won't hear your voice again.. "HE PROMISED" I cried.
Why did you leave me? Why couldn't you just stay?
A couple nights ago, my boyfriend.. Was killed by a 12 wheeler truck.
I feel so .. So empty. I wish this was a nightmare I really do.. "Hun? Eat something." My dad walked into my room.
"I'm fine." My voice cracked.
The last night we were together we made love.. The last morning together he showed how much I meant to him.
"Alex..." I started to cry again. Holding my chest. It hurted so bad.
"Sis.. Can we come in?" I saw Yari , Nessy , Jase , & Kayla at the door.
I shrugged. "Babe you can't keep closed In this room." Nessy came in opening my curtains.
"Just know we're here for you Roni..we love you. Nun of us know how this shit feels, I am so sorry.." Nessy couldn't see me like this it hurted her.
Kayla placed a big teddy bear and a basket of candy on my bed. "I'm your bestfriend. If anything you know ima be right on your side. This will be a long journey but it won't be a lonely one. I love you."
" I love yall too" I started crying again.
Couple minutes later after I finally stopped crying, Tim , Twist , and Shawn walked in.
I know Tim was way sicker than me. He lost his brother.. His roll dawg. "What up. You holding up?" Tim looked so sick but was trying to be strong for me. Including the rest of the boys, the lost they friend.
"Are you okay?" I ignored his question.
He stood there and shook his head.. he just broke down.
I hopped up and hugged him so tight as we just sat there on the floor. Everybody was stuck.
"Tim we all gone be straight man." Twist squeezed his shoulder.
"My mom want you to come to dinner tomorrow night." Tim whipped his tears. "Ok I'll be there, how's everybody over there?" I was concerned about everyone else more than myself. I know this death is hard for everyone not just me.
"My moma.. Not taking it well man. My dad won't talk. It's too much going on."
...
"I never thought this was gone happen.. Alex? Why? This feeling hurts so bad. My baby is gone. There's nothing I can do about it." I shook my head and passed the blunt to Yari.
"Life is so short you never know when it's your last day here." Nina said while rolling up another one.
"I think it's so weird how you said Yall made love and how he spent his
Last night with his boys... God knew what he was doing." Nessy was still in so much shock.
For the rest of the night we all just smoked back to back. I didn't know what else to do... I was feeling so incomplete.
Y A R I ,
I feel so bad for Roni. I honestly don't know how she's feeling and can't even imagine how much pain she's feeling.
Not only was that my sister boyfriend but that was my brother too. It's like there's one thing after another. We are all close. Close friends and family.
