Nessy,
Me announcing to my dad that im pregnant took so much in me. He stood there lost for words. He took a good look at me and shook his head with disbelief.
Roni Got up from the kitchen table and walked upstairs without saying a word. My dad leaned on the counter and folded his arms with his head held down. He was hurt. How could I disappoint him like this?
Yari finally decided to get up and leave the kitchen after 2 long ass minutes of silence.
Now there we sat. Me and My dad. No words. Just silence.
" I let her Down..." My dad rubbed the back of his neck.
By her I knew he meant my Mother.
" Dad. Im sorry." Those words were the only ones I could really say.
"I just ... im hurt. I feel like I haven't been doing what I've supposed to been doing."
"You have."
"Ro'Nessa.. Out of all things you decide to lay up and have a child when your a child yourself?" he shook his head.
"Don't just say it like im some kinda young minded teenager who lays around and now I ended up pregnant and barely know who's my child father.."
"Who is the father?"
"Derrick." I muttered.
"The lil boy who be picking you up here and there?"
"Yea dad. my boyfriend since sophomore year."
"Are you guys still together?"
"Yes."
"How far are you..." he smirked.
"A month.." I placed my hand on my baby bump which some what showed but barely.
"Ro'Nessa im upset but I can't cause extra stress on you... Ill be very supportive. Im here. I love you."
"I love you too." I played with my fingers.
"You have to finish your senior year... and you still must figure out how your going to take your college classes." he added.
"Thats fine."
A while after me and my Dad were done talking. I called Nina and candy over. I was still a little In my feelings from the disappointment I put inside of my dad.
I called Derrick he didn't answer.
I just left it alone. To be honest I started feeling a little distance between us lately. Ive been trying to ignore the sign's because im just so afraid of even thinking of us not being able to get through whatever we have to get through.
"Hey." Candy came in the door and sat down on the couch with me and Nina.
"Hey girl." I halfed smile.
"so what's up? how things went?" candy looked over at me and nina.
"Honestly... I'm confused about my dad's reaction with everything. Like He says its fine but Now I feel like thats just him saying that when really he hates me."
" no. I honestly don't think he hates you. I mean yeah he's going to go through a phase where he's like dang my teenager is pregnant. but he could never hate you so much for something like this. plus your 17. You will be Grown in just a grip best friend." Nina said.
"Yeah. I would sweat it. You talk to Derrick?" Candy asked.
"No. He wouldn't return my calls since yesterday."
