Yari,
"I can't believe you & Jay got serious!" I laughed.
"Yes girl. That's my boyfriend." Jase chuckled.
"Dang. do Mel be with yall sometimes?"
"yea. like when we're at jay house or at mel's."
"he be bringing me up?" I asked.
" not like that sometimes. " she shrugged
"oh okay. so what's the moves tonight?" I pinned my hair up.
"I don't even know man. let's got to a party dude." Jace whined.
"Girl Fletcher will kill me."
"so! Jay gone be mad too. lets just go!" she pouted.
"okay okay. let's find some parties."
Nessy,
"This cute!" I picked up this outfit for K'lyn.
"She's already spoiled!" Roni nagged.
"shut up! I want her favorite cartoon character to be Minnie mouse tho.." I looked at other baby stuff.
"are you scared?" Roni asked.
"of what?" I chuckled looking at her.
"You know..giving birth and just mother hood period."
"well yea .. but I can't think negative. Everything will be okay. If nobody got my baby girl I will."
"Derrick wanted a girl?"
"girllll no! He wants a boy soooo bad. but I know this lil girl about to be rotten spoiled because how he is with his lil cousins he be watching Taytay & Nay." I shook my head smiling.
"yall work on yall relationship?"
"no. We communicate we do what's best for k'lyn.. he's here when I need him I'm there when he needs me..but no title just a bond."
"yall might as well.."
"might as well whaaat?" I laughed.
"stop playing and get back together." Roni gave me a irritated look.
"nah, things won't be the same with us. honestly. I love the hell out of Derrick but what he did really hurted me. Even tho I love him I can't keep running away than going back cause I feel like I need him. I don't need him as bad as I think I do." I sighed.
"Im so scared Alex Gone hurt me so bad in the end. I hope we make it to the future together."
"Be prepared for anything sis. Im yo big sister im gone be 1 Hunnit w/ you. I promise you this pregnancy was not planned. but its happened there's nothing I can do about it. I really wanted to wait for all this until after college but things didn't go as planned. Now I have to figure out when Ima start school, what daycare k'lyn will be in, am I going to be able to go to school out of state all that.." I shook my head.
"But you got this, I mean theres nothing I know you can't get through. It's like your perfect. Dad loves you & all.."
" And he loves you too. Don't feel like dad Loves me more Roni. You know what theg say The person that shows the most anger towards you is the one that love you so deeply inside. You give dad a hard time so of course he stays angry with you."
Later,
"you think about seeing other people?" Nina Asked while flat ironing my hair.
"Girl no. It's gone be hard to find a boy who wants me & my little bundle too." I chuckled.
"yeah, but it's lots of MEN out here who'll step in and take care of you & baby k."
