Denki X BNHA males

please read this and give advise

Okay there will be multiple misspelled things bc im pissed.

Okay
So i fucking patched things with thw fathwr Of the kid up , it lasted for a fucking month, we were getting along fine, had a few arguments.

Then he all of a sudden for the past two weeks
Either ignores me, argues with me, calls me fucking names, and all of this other shit.

Tonight was thw final straw
Im being kicked out of mt home , mind you im fucking 15-16, have no choice but to move whervee my mother decides she wants to move, bc im not fighting in court to become a legal adult etc.

I tell him.
And he freaks out on me.

One of the convos we fucking had sometime this week was
About him being in the birthing room with me, and parent class both at the same timw mind you.
And he said "idk, I'll think about it", i thought he meant being with me during the birth like he wanted to, so i sent 'We'll figure out you being in the room with me during the kids birth, If you even want to be, later on' aftwrwards bc the move is 2hours away from him.

And he goes off.
Start calling me names
Says all type of shit , twlling me im making ahit difficult, saying im toxic, and selfish for moving with my mum,  and shit.

Then he says.

He regrets having the kid with me.
And he regrets loving me.

Ive thought of and talked about abortion. Because i was scared, and he was causing so much panic, and stress fighting me all the time, and threatning to take the kid.
But im not going to. I wouldnt and havent thought of it since two months ago.
I love my baby.

And i loved him
I dont regret loving him never will. He was my first love after all. But obviously not the right one.
And i will NEVER FUCKING NWVER regret my child.
Fucking never.

The best choice i made was keeping it.  (Im 4months pregnant)
And i wont ever regret.

Ive matured.
Enough to know im cutting him off for good.
He will not be apart of my life nor the kids.
Ever.

and i mean that.
Hes A. In a relationship with a what he said "abusive" girl.
B. Toxic.
C.manipulative.

Etcetc.

And won't have a life like that around my baby.

He is not the father. Never will be. Ever.
Blood to the baby or not.
He doesn't belong in its life.
Its his biggest regret.

Me and the baby.

He regrets it.

So im taking that regrer away.
He wont have to deal with his mistakes.
Ever.

And my child will never be a mistake in my eyes.
Evwr.
Ive already fallen in love with my baby.
And i cant wait to meet her/him.

We dont need the father.
I can do this on my own.
Me, and my baby. We'll make it without him.

I loved him, i truly did, so much, it what i was okay with ever getting in bed with him, because i loved him and trusted him so much, so much i was okay with getting pregnant.

But my love wasn't enough for him.
So ill take it, and give it to my baby.
And to the next man/women/human to walk into my life.
To someone who will treat me right.
Because i know my worth 💛

Also i wanted to add this to it.

I literally said this to a friend, a day ago about how.

"Ive loved him since i met him, wasnt as much as i do now, but i learned how much i loved him. So two years.
Ive loved him for two years.
And since i love him im willing to wait as long as it takes to win him back, to have him back as my lover."
And talked about him like
"He has this adorable smile, when he smiles his eyes squint a bit, and he has a dimple on one side of his cheek if he smiles widely .
When he laughs, it depends on how hard he laughs with the sound of it. Sometimes it'll be a breathy 'ha ha' , or a longish 'hahahh' .
He has a pokèmon obsession. Its cute, i act annoyed by it sometimes, but, its adorable because of how much he likes it.
He loves physical touch, its his love language, he loves to cuddle, and hold hands, and just touch 24/7 no matter what. And i love that.
Sometimes, we'd lay in his bed, and just talk about things, while holding each other.
Hes allergic to cats, and wasabi, i hate the cat part heh, but i could live with just a dog.
Hes playful, hated being called 'bro' by me.
He loved to match our clothes, and jewelry, which i hated ssometimes because I didnt get to wear my other jewelry
He loved me. And i loved him."
"we could lay in eachothers arms for hours. It was amazing. I loved it.
I loved holding his hands.
Or his face in my hands and looking into his eyes.
I loved being able to joke with him. He wants to cook when hes older, and wants to make his dad proud of him . i just wish he could understand how much i love him."
"Man, i could stare into his eyes for hours, apon hours, if i didnt get flustered that easily.
His eyes are a greenish grey.
Hes helped me through so much, and i hope i helped him with some things.
I love him."
When my friend said to get him back
"I can't , he's with someone else. And he looks super happy with her. I dont want to take away his happiness.
I'm willing to wait as long as it takes for him."
"He knows I love him, ive told him i did. "
My friend said maybe it'll work out etc.
"I hope so bro.
This dude taught me what it meant to love, and what true love was.
I grew up with my family fighting all the time, that was my definition of 'love' thats what i was taught love was, constant fights over dumb shit.
And i brought that to him, and fought with him over dumb stuff.
And now i realize how stupid those fights were, and how i should've just shut up about it, because none of the fights where Worth Losing my love.
I realized love isnt fighting, you dont fight with the one you love, over Dumb shit, you dont call your love names no matter how mad you are, you defend your love to everyone who means harm.
You defend the one you love like your life depends on It.
And i didnt do that.
I didnt fight for him like I should've, i let my emotions get the better of me, and told my friends i didnt need him when he ended things, because i was scared and was convincing myself i didnt need him, when in reality i did, i do. I do need him. I need him in my life."

Ik i was so in love am i right?
T-T