Denki X BNHA males

Kamibaku- Lovely

(Short, like really short.)

won't add TW RN if anyone's triggered just comment and ill add those triggers, yes, I'm lazy rn, yes idc, yes this is kind of just to help me, leave me be I'm not doing well rn. 
This is all over the place man.

Im in a bit of a depressive spiral rn.
SO :)
Using "Apollo"  b3cause thats the name i would've chose if my daughter was a boy instead.

FTM! Denki.

Mention of Pregnant! Denki
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Denki's P.O.V

"Love.

I was never built for it. 

It was never meant for me.

I think you proved that to me when you left me, after showing me what it was.

At first, we had such a beautiful time, it was amazing you seemed so sweet and loving. 
The way youd smile at me, the way you kiss me, and whisper sweet things, the way you touched me, even the way you looked at me...it was a loveky feeling that didnt last.

It's a funny thing manipulation, but we won't get on that subject.

Really. You broke my soul. My heart. You added to my trust issues,

I think you broke me and showed me love doesn't really exist when you left after you found out I was keeping her. 

to be honest I think you finally realized how big of a responsibility it would have been, and decided to leave, because you can't handle that. Yet , you like to think you're so grown.

Some "man" you are..

yet look at me.

here I am, 16 years old, depressed, anxiety ridden, and fucked up.

acting mature and taking care of a 3month old. 

Who has shown me how to love, has taught me responsibility, the worry of a parent..

You know.

I sometimes come across your page... more or so I visit it... hah.

and there I see you standing with her, smiling as if you never had a kid out there. 

as if you've never fooled me.

An immature Trans easily manipulated kid. Who wanted nothing more than to love someone and to be loved. Something they've read in fairy tales, and books, the kind of love that makes your day brighter and better just by a hug, just by being held.

I remember those longing loving looks id give you, how I felt so safe in your hold, how much you affected me, how much I just wanted to be near you how much i wanted to marry you..

I so badly just wanted to be with you..
And seriously. 

No words can explain how i felt when i realized you really just... left.... and just got with the girl you told me i never had to worry about, she was just your best friend the person you'd talk to during our fights.   

And I believed you. 

I dont nowadays when i look back on our relationship i realized how fucked it was.

I Remember the day we broke up.

Holloween 2021 my favorite holiday because i love to dress up.

I was around 4-5weeks pregnant?

I remember how hard i cried, how i felt my stomach drop, how hard it was to breath, and how i just collapsed to the ground in my bedroom when i realized it was finally it. 

When i realized you wanted nothing to do with me or her.

The world collapsed,  i realised id have to do this alone.

Have to raise her without her knowing her "dad".
Have to deal with things like
"Why don't i have a dad?"
"Wheres my dad"
"Who is my dad"
Etc.

And not being able to tell her...

To be honest id probably tell her you're dead to me. Or you're away on a trip and wont be back. Or something.

Until shes old enough to know.
I won't tell her how much of a coward you were.

..................

I honstly wanted to scream at you
I needed to but i never did.  I wanted to scream how much i loved you, and curse you for what you did, but i kept my cool.

The day you left, i wanted to scream and tell you not to walk away, but  i kept my cool and reacted as if i didnt care so i wouldnt breakdown , i just went 'ill get over it' so console myself. I lost so much to you. YOU TOOK SO MUCH FROM ME.

My virginity.(unwillingly)
My heart.
You love.
My very little trust i had left.
My happiness.

But little by little my little girl my little 'Apollo' has brung me back.

Even if i havw my moments.

All i have to say now though.

Is fuck you Mineta(SD). "

(Bakugo represents my best friends :) they also get me thru hard times even just thinking of them and stuff theyve said helps.)

Bakugo smiled reading the notebook of Denkis and hugged him.

"And now im here love. Dont worry. Karma will come for his dusty pale wannabe ass."

"Yeah i know, itll be in the form of me."

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This is fucked up but lowkey , when i found out SD's brother died my ass SMILED !
His brother didnt deserve it,  but he did, so..... hahaha

It brought a smile to my face because karma came and is still coming (unlike me when i was with him >;) 🕺😭😂)