Denki X BNHA males

Kirikami-its not just you.

TW: Depression, suicide,  may be offensive?? 

Short but hey *insert shrug*

More or so Kirishima centric. 

Cue me tryna be poetic
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No ones POV

The day seemed dark and gloomy,  the sky was grey with it's unshed tears  threatening to fall any minute, the wind blows lightly brushing thought the trees and hair of the red headed hero: who was sat on the ground staring ahead seemingly lost in his head.

Much like the sky his eyes held tears he refused to let fall, despite the sorrow and pain he felt.  The anger he held not towards anyone but himself, for ignoring what he noticed to be signs indicating his lover was losing the war that went on inside.

He felt lost, scared, and now most of all alone. 

Despite the countless friends and family that surrounded him. That held him and whispered words trying to counsel the poor boy. 

Despite their efforts all seemed lost. 

Despite the millions of people he felt lonely. Felt alone.

He felt as if everything just vanished.  As if his world had been ripped away from him.

No.

Everything was ripped away from him. 

His bestfriend, his hero, other half, boyfriend, fiancè,  future husband. His fucking world.

All because of what? 

Depression.

He felt like a loser. 

He felt he could've helped his lover more, he could've done something more.

He knew how his S/O felt.

He knew what he was going through yet,  he did nothing. 

He was gone when it happened. 

He was working, saving the world,  saving people.  Being a hero..

He didn't feel like a hero at all.  That license meant nothing.  The billions of people saved meant nothing. 

All because he failed to save his world.  His human.  His forever.

His happiness. 

He failed to save him.

But over all those feelings he felt... Betrayed in a way. 

"you're stupid y'know? You didn't do anything but pass the pain on kami not only to me but to your friends. " Kirishima blurted wiping his teary eyes, his legs ached from sitting on them these past few hours, he'd done nothing but stare in silence at the grey slab, trying to understand.

"We agreed to tell eachother everything.  I can't understand why you couldn't just..  Tell me you were beginning to lose it. Why you couldn't just pick up the phone and call me?  Or anyone for that matter! - I just...  Kami.. " Kirishima whimpered quietly,  looking at the slab longingly.

"can I join you? I want to.  Kaminari you were the only one keeping me here.  Out future together was the only thing keeping me grounded, levelheaded, sane!" he exclaimed tears finally getting the best of him, sliding down his face.

"you weren't the only one going through shit, the only one thinking of giving up!  I felt that way everyday.  But when looked at you,  everything went silent.  Everything felt okay.  Doing stuff felt worth it!  Saving people felt worth it!  Fighting Felt worth it! You were my reason. "

Kirishima sighed reaching out he lightly traced the ingraved name.

"I miss you..... I might come join you soon.  I need to see you.  I HAVE to. Without you here I feel incomplete,  you- you're my other half Kam. I have no reason to stay in this awful world! I need you.."

The skies seemingly understanding the meaning behind his words, and unbearable pain the boy was in grumbled,  and wailed the skies finally crying with him, the trees trying to reach out to hug him and caress his face.

The wind blew in protest when he stood up,  with a defeated grin,  "I will join you. I need you in my arms. As much as you need to be held by me. "

"I failed you,  I apologize my love. "

The wind blew harsher as if trying to shove him back as he walked away from the slab,  "I'll be back.  My last breath will be next to you. "

..

Denkis POV

' What have I done?  '

I followed Kirishima as he walked away,  desperate for him to stop,  "love please!  I'm sorry don't do anything, I was weak!  I should've done better I should have told you!  I shouldn't have done this now look at you!  Red please! " I cried out shoving against him, it was as if nothing I did would work.  .

My tears flowed faster,  my cries and begging growing louder and being ignored. I longed to hug him  he looked so..  Sad.  So defeated.

"Red! Love!  Please.  Please! "I wailed.

No ones POV

The skies cried harder,  thunder yelling out,  the wind blowing harsher trying to keep the boy in place keep him from doing something so drastic.  Something to bad. 

"I'm sorry Kami.  I love you okay? " Kirishima whispered.

With that he was gone.  Only to soon return. 

He kept his word.

And like that.

Kirishima was found dead laying ontop of the freshly piled grave.  A smile and dried tears worn on his face.

Kaminaris POV

' I knew I wasn't the only one.  I was selfish.. '

I only passed my pain onto others.  I should've been stronger..

'Here lies Denki Kaminari,  loving Fiancë, hero,  and friend '

' here lies Eijiro Kirishima loving Fiance, hero,  and friend'

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Apologize if this was horrible lol I'm sleep deprived 💀

It probably doesn't make any sense lol but hey I updated!  :D

Also

If you or someone you know is going through anything like this,  and feel suicide is the only answer or feel harming yourself / themself will help please seek guidance / help from a loved one,  or therapist.

And/ or call a hotline if you feel like taking your life. 

Remember you matter!  You are loved,  suicide doesn't have to be an option. I love you beautiful / handsome humans. 
<3

My DM'S are open if anyone needs to contact me, I'm here and will listen and try my best to give advice to you if you want. :)
- Pika