What I wish I knew as a student...✐

19. How to find yourself 💎

This is something we all go through in life.

Some found themselves already (some really rare diamonds out there 😄 heh *jealous* ), others are on the way and there are people who lost themselves along the way.

I may be young and still around the age where I'm simply Lost in Life.

But hehehe ᕕ(ᐛ)ᕗ I'm still going strong.

Difficult ages start at the age of 15 and end around the age of 25.

That's the time you developed your own personal growth and get triggered with the grown up mechanism world.

I'm just halfway in and to be honest, I have experienced a lot in an instant.

I'm not saying this to scare you but to know what is ahead of you. I didn't know what was even coming for me...

In my teenage years: 15-17 I can say that I did alot of shiz (Not drinking, smoking or stuff) but more like not able to maintain a healthy relationship with people I liked.

It's just part of growing up and as I grew older I learned that I could've done things better.

During that age, I wasted time, energy, lost people who I thought were close to me, failed high school and lost my passion.

It happened so fast like the blink to an eye.

Around the age of 18: I didn't mind it much, but reality struck harder again.

Suddenly I was an adult, making decisions for my future. Taking full responsibility of my actions and trying not to blame anyone else but me.

I had to work physically to earn money (swallow down the pain of giving up already), had to stand before one of my biggest challenges in life (reaching the end high school) and met people from the outside world.

Let me tell you something, no matter how kind you are to people, some just simply can not return the favor back. Not everyone intends to do you good and that is the hard truth. 🙂

Heck!

I was just 17 yesterday and boom I suddenly became 18 and then 19-

Life oes faster and struck you harder than you think.

So try to enjoy the moment you have and not regret one single thing.

I sound like an old wise man xD but I am far from that.

I know can relate to what wise old men once told me about life.

Now that I'm 19, nearly reaching my 20s...

I just know that the labour in the real world will get to me one day.

May it be financial problems, health problems or simply being lost again.

It's totally normal because everyone goes through it. There's no exception.

Life gets you and we need to accept that.

In my 19 years of existence, I suddenly felt like I don't know who I am.

Literally, had to apply for my future career not knowing what is ahead of me or if it is suited for me, not being able to discover new passion because I am occupied with more important stuffs in life

Scared of being a grown up failure, scared of being held back, scared of being a laughing stock in the real world....

I have much going on my mind.

I do wish I could go back to where I didn't have to be independent much.

It scares me a lot and hell it does! No one talks about their fears but truth to be told we all fear.

There's so much awaiting for each one of us until we truly find ourselves.

The point of this chapter is to teach you (especially younger ones) that life doesn't get easier.

Spoiler alert but it really doesn't.

You simply grow stronger.

Life will make you cry hard, feel betrayed, lost, abounded and fearful. But it also makes you confident, bold, strong and curious.

There will be times where you have to prove yourself to people who look down on you.

Times where you have to stay humble and keep your mouth shut too.

And times where you want to give up because of it.

But no matter how many hard burdens and torments life gives you.

Remember how far it got you too.

The secret to life is not to just exist because you are on earth.

It is to live in every moment and make your own history. 🔥

That my mates is what keeps me going and this is why we are alive.

Enough old wise men Mitch speech. XD

I'm not even 30 and have not experienced all kinds of struggle but I will return someday to tell you about it.

(Hopefully if life gives me more leisure time too ಠ_ಥ)