Our Yesterday's Escape (University Series #6)

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"You're leaving after graduation?" 

Hiro was always there for me, a one-call-away friend, so knowing he was already leaving after graduation made me a bit lonely. I was not used to not having him beside me whenever I needed him since we were inseparable ever since we were kids. I was not the best at taking that news lightly. 

"I need to take care of my dad," he told me, putting his hands on the back of his head. Nakahiga kami sa buhanginan ngayon. Our friends went on a beach outing for our short break. 

"Are you changing your mind?" I asked with my shades on. The sun was already setting, so it didn't hurt my eyes that much. I was just watching how the skies changed their colors. 

He didn't answer, so I knew it was a yes. He was bound to change his mind because of the girl he met. I actually couldn't understand how one woman could change the plans you already set for yourself. How special could that woman be? I could never do that. What was so special about someone that you could ruin your life plans for them? 

"You're probably ridiculing me in your head right now. How could Hiro give up anything for this woman? There could never be someone that special. Everyone's just the same," he mocked me, and I laughed. "But you will never truly understand, Shan, until you're in the same position as me... Until you meet someone that you know you can never find anywhere else. Until you meet someone you can't let go of." 

"It's just not for me." I shook my head, still laughing. "Must be so stressful to fall in love, huh? Suddenly, you're considering a future for two, not just for yourself. Have fun being selfless. I plan to live my life being selfish and only thinking of myself forever." 

"You're not selfish at all." He scoffed before smiling. "But there's also nothing wrong with not wanting to fall in love. Relationships aren't for everyone. However, do you think you can just fuck around forever?" 

"Well..." I clicked my tongue against my teeth. "I know I will get tired of this set-up at some point. I'll give it up for good and just live my life alone. It's also starting to feel... stupid. I don't feel that good about it anymore. You know... Just fucking around. I just don't understand. How do you know if you're deep already with the person? How did you know?" I curiously asked since I never felt that way before. 

"The thing is... It's not something that you have to think over a hundred times. You'll just wake up one day and see the person different from how you saw them yesterday. Suddenly, the touches start sending you shivers. The kisses are sending butterflies. Sex is now called making love. Their voice starts sounding like your favorite fucking song, and you'll suddenly realize you're in love. Deeply." 

"Damn, okay, lover boy." I shook my head in amazement. That was such a nice way to describe it. He almost got me wanting to feel all those things. Almost. "But one day, things will change again. Their touches will start to feel disgusting. Kisses will feel like something you're obligated to give. Sex will just be sex, and their voice starts to sound annoying."

"Then that's not love," Hiro raised his brow. "I used to think like that, too... because of what happened to my parents. Even so, I know the only change that will happen to my love is that it will get deeper and deeper as years pass by. That's how it is."