Our Yesterday's Escape (University Series #6)

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TW: violence, abuse, suicide, sexual harassment

SHAN

"Yes. I'm mad at the one who did this to you... I'm so mad that I might not be able to control myself once I see him out there."

I could feel all the anger building up inside me while listening to Kierra's story. I could probably already feel my blood going up to my head. Nag-iinit ang ulo ko kahit hindi ko pa siya nakikita.

I knew he was a fucking asshole, but he just went lower and lower. I could never look at him as a human being anymore. After what he did... He was just an animal to me. A monster.

I didn't know how to face him in school. I tried my best to ignore his presence pero lahat ng sinabi ni Kierra ay bumabalik sa akin. Mahigpit kong hinawakan ang ballpen habang nagsusulat sa index cards ko at gumagawa ng notes sa library. Miguel just passed by and saw me studying kaya hinatak niya ang upuan para maupo siya sa harapan ko.

Muntik ko nang maputol ang ballpen. Padabog akong tumayo at niligpit kaagad ang mga gamit ko. I never wanted to be in the same space as this fucker.

"Woah, grabe ka naman, bro. You're hurting my feelings," he teased, smirking.

"Get the fuck out of my sight," I hissed. My hands turned into a fist. I was trying so hard to control my anger but seeing him would never be the same after what he did to Kierra. I could never even breathe the same air as him.

"What did you just say?" Padabog din siyang tumayo kaya tumama ang upuan sa kabilang table. May mga lumingon sa aming estudyante, nakakunot ang noo dahil naiistorbo sila.

It was so embarrassing to even be in the same place as him. Kinuha ko lahat ng gamit ko at nagmamadaling umalis. He just couldn't leave me alone and even followed me to the parking lot. I wanted to leave the campus. His presence was making me throw up.

"What the fuck is your problem?! Hindi pa tayo tapos!" Hinatak niya ang braso ko pero kaagad kong inalis ang hawak niya.

"Don't fucking touch me," giit ko. Maglalakad na sana ulit ako paalis nang hawakan niya ang balikat ko at hinatak ulit ako.

"What? Is this about Kierra again? Ano na naman b'ang pinagkakalat ng baliw na 'yon?" He even laughed. His laugh echoed loudly in my ear.

I was patient. I was controlling myself so hard. I stood there with my hands turned into a fist. In my head, I already punched the shit out of him but I stood there, doing nothing. I can't... I can't hurt anyone. I practiced control for years. I can't ruin my life for this guy.

He looked at me with a smirk on his lips and eyes full of amusement. I wanted to throw up. Fuck, my stomach was turning. He disgusted me so badly.

"I know every fucking thing you did, Miguel, so if you'd be a little kinder to yourself, you will leave, because I could kill you right now," I said through my gritted teeth.