Contract Marriage ✅️

Chapter 3

 I felt extremely guilty at the same time as I was thinking that I was cheating on Akash. But nothing was in my hand. I thought I was recovering emotionally but I was becoming more and more of a mess. I had nobody to share my problems, my thoughts, my emotions. Though I lost my love for Akash, still I really consider him as a great companion and a partner to live with, a great friend, but I couldn’t share anything with him. How could I tell him that I don’t love him and now I love someone else, a person I can never even meet for once in my personal life! I didn’t have the courage to say that straight to his face, my guilt was eating me badly day by day. I also couldn’t say anything to my mother or brother as this marriage was my choice and also I didn’t want to give them more stress and trouble than they already have. I just kept everything to myself. On one hand guilt and on the other hand loving someone whom I can’t even see in person! I was devastated from inside. I just wanted to give up on my life. Wanted to die so badly, so that I will be at peace and once again can unite with my dad. Oh how I wish my father to be here I can get the support I need at that time. I couldn’t quit my life because of my son, but I also couldn’t take it anymore.

Present time-

I didn’t realize when I fell asleep crying and thinking about my life. I woke up by hearing knocking on the door. Then I heard Thomas’s voice, “ Sissy, you okay? Can I come in? “. I let him sit up on the bed. He came in smiling but soon faded away seeing my red and swollen eyes. He quietly sat beside me, took my hand in his and said, “ It’s good to let out your pain but don’t stress too much about it. You will fall sick. I can’t see you in so much pain. I know that you are not my sister by blood but I feel like you are my sister from another mother. I love you sissy and can’t see you like this. I know I can’t take away your pain. But I can do anything to make you happy. “. I can see tears falling from his eyes. I wiped his tears, smiled and said, “ I am not totally lost in this game. You know why? I got an understanding little brother in you. You unknowingly became my family, my support system, my strong backbone. Don’t worry, it’s just a matter of time. I will get better and back on my feet again. How can I stay broken when I have this sweet brother, hmm? “. He silently smiled and nodded knowing I will be heartbroken forever now, there’s no escape for me from this suffering. Then he said, “ Hey come on get ready in 10 mins we are going out for a movie and will eat out”. I was about to make an excuse for not going out but he said, “ I know you are about to give me some lame excuse so get that idea out of your mind and get ready in 10 mins.”. I smiled thinking how well my brother knows me, replied, “ Just wait outside I am coming “. I then went to the washroom freshen up, changed my dress from pj’s to a hoodie and a black jeans and a pair of snickers, braided my hair and went out. Looking at me Thomas asked, “ Sissy when will you learn to put on a little bit of makeup while going out? “ I said, “ You know my style is don’t care and tomboyish. I don’t like to put those things on my face on a daily basis. I am not like those girly and fancy kinda girls”. “ Know sissy, that’s why I like you so much, you are different and not over dramatic kinda girls. You are sassy. “, he said. I chuckled at his words and said, “ Bhaitu (little brother in Bengali) we are getting late now. Come on, let’s go. “. We left. He took me and we watched our favorite Avengers movie. Then he took me to our favorite diner and we had our favorite pizza and coke. We enjoyed it a lot. Though I was in pain, he managed to ease it. We arrived at home and wished each other good night and went to our respective rooms. I was feeling light but as soon I became alone, the sadness started to engulf me. Though I used to sleep on a different bed but in the same room. Every night I used to fall asleep feeling his presence. I was thinking about him and slowly shifted into dreamland.