All hell is rising

Part 35: words from the writer

I wrote about this because my best friend persuaded me too. She also stood by my side while I wrote it because I've had doubts about writing it. Now when i say she stood by my side I mean that every time I thought about giving up she kept me going. This might be a fictional story but it's crazy because stuff like this actually happens in daily life. We deal with a lot of police brutality gun violence and rape. However no one likes to speak up because like chase's mom when people speak up about rape most parent's refuse to do anything about and others refuse to listen. I watched movies about parents not listening to their kids and picking their boyfriend over their kids but I never expected it to happen in the real world. We need to start showing support and stepping up as a whole. I mean it's just going too far. I know people are tired of losing their family members. While I was writing this book I had a lot of obstacles. I was writing my book while working and going to school. Seeing my best friend might be the reason that I started this book but someone that I was working with is the reason that I decided to keep writing. So my work schedule was tight because I worked four to ten on weekdays and I do doubles on the weekends well I used to before I quit. See because not only rape a big issue that doesn't get much attention so is sexual haressment. So let me tell y'all what happened. One day my girlfriend and I were working the same schedule. I had been there since ten and my girlfriend came at four. Well we were all leaving but the managers stayed until one and Twelve. So me and my girlfriend were in the lobby. She was waiting for her mom and I was waiting to use the bathroom now. Usually I would walk home until a manager offered to take me home. So he was waiting outside of the store for me so I walked over to my girlfriend and gave her a kiss and he came into the store and he started smiling telling us to kiss again and I actually thought he was playing so I left the store and told him to hurry up. Once we got into the car he was acting very weird. So as we were driving he started saying "so I like you and you like her?" Then he repeated it again. I started to get really uncomfortable. I really got grossed out when He said give me a kiss and then asked me if I like him. I wanted to get out of the car so bad. The next morning I texted my manager that I don't want to work with him any more. They got mad because I kept leaving early. When I saw the actual manager that I told he said he thought I was joking. Like Imma really stand there and joke about something like that. I'm not gonna jeopardize my money for no joke like that. I really felt unsafe around him. Plus when I told him I didn't like him he started driving faster. The manager that I told said he would talk to his manager now I knew exactly what that meant. See they speak their own little language and they are all family. See but me I knew when he said that he was going to talk to his boss that he wasn't going to get fired so y'all just gonna continue to let this man work here. I quit because I refuse to work with people that think that it is okay to let someone work after someone reports them for a serious issue. He was lucky I wasn't on the phone because I would have reported him and sued because now I'm traumatized from him trying to kiss me. Now what if I would've punched him for doing something like that? He reported me right. I would have got fired right on the spot. That's just how backwards this world is. Not only that, I know the other managers used to see him touching my shoulders and shit. I mean see but i just decided to focus on my money until i started to get more and more uncomfortable until I quit. See this is why people refuse to speak up because no one really listens. My problem is I'm too kind hearted and I let people get to me. Well at least I used to. so many people told me I shouldn't write about this because it can be triggering. Well I can't really control how people take it because I didn't write this book in order to trigger people I wrote it to actually get people to speak up about their issues. People refuse to speak up because no one actually believes them.This becomes a bigger problem because it leads to depression and other things. I honestly had so many critics before I even had a chance to finish the book that didn't stop me from writing at all. The only reason I started working was so that I could save up and get my book published. Well now it looks like that will actually be a while. I still refuse to give up because writing is my passion and to me personally it's all I got. Writing is actually something that I randomly picked up. Football has always been my thing when I was younger but when I was In the store I decided to buy a book and try something new. So I started writing my first book about my life but I didn't really like it so I just threw it in the trash that was actually the first book I published I tried writing other books in the past but it didn't really work out for me. Look life can be hard and stressful and sometimes people feel like maybe they should just give up if I'm being honest In my eyes I'm like chase giving up is not an option. I spent the entire summer looking for a job but I never gave up and I kept looking until I found a job that I liked and that I was good at. I really made my own schedule. My first week was my easiest week of all. I learned fast and I learned everything from watching. One day while it was raining our power went off I had to stand outside near the drive thru to tell people that we were only taking cash. Honestly I didn't really like the way that job worked because throughout the entire day they use the same drawer for all three registers and they switch up the people that are on register so of course if money comes up missing they wouldn't really know who to blame. One thing about me is that my drawer was always full. Now anyways I'm getting off topic. This was written to help people open their eyes not to scare people. I want people to know that it is ok to speak up. That if they need to talk to someone don't be scared to go to therapy. See because once a parent shows that they don't believe their child. The child shuts down and they decide not to trust anyone. I told my manager and they didn't believe me so I lost trust for the job and for other people too. You can't let anyone make you give up on your dreams if you wanna do something, don't let people decide what you should do because it's you doing it not them.