Self-love and acceptance (for a spiritual teen)

month 6: feb 2022

my mind is occupied with only one thought. after my tremendous success in the december exams, i am awaiting my future exams with 100% vigour.

i'm not afraid of my future because i KNOW that i will be successful. i am extremely intelligent and street smart. my people skills grow by the day and every passing day makes me more mentally and physically fit. 

i am a genius at theoretical and practical classes, earning the praise and admiration of teachers and fellow students. the exam results being extremely favourable to me also catalyses my drive for further success.

my family is supportive and i am extremely productive, with a never-ending love for knowledge and a vast growth mindset. i am a goal oriented person, with the ability to accomplish everything i wish to do.

i have lost 4kg of weight and grown 2 inches taller. i feel more confident in my skin and walk with more confidence and better posture. people hesitate to judge me because i am always nice and strive to be my best self.

i am very skilled at math and sciences. my knowledge of computer science is a marvel to everyone. my project in computer science is my everyones favourite. i am able to comprehend even the most complex problems in a simple and solvable manner.

i am really good at communicating my thoughts and ideas. i am able to put myself first and focus on myself, without feeling any kind of guilt. i am extremely calculative and am great at time management. i am able to use all my available resource to the fullest extent, be it my books, teachers, the internet, my time, etc. i am able to use everything i possess and every fibre in my being and everything god and the universe have gifted me with, to achieve all my goals and dreams.

i am singularly and primarily focused on my only goal and everything else falls into place. my friends and family are co-operative and understanding of the need of the hour. i am never disturbed by anyone, and no event that i hope to avoid ever happens.

i am able to avoid all uncomfortable or difficult situations with my quick wit and will power. 

i study all day without feeling tired at all. i never feel the need to rest because i KNOW my goals and dreams are worth every moment of sleep and entertainment that i would gladly give up. i never concern myself with anything that has nothing to do with me. pop culture, cinema, music, dance- nothing can hold me back anymore. i have lost interest in anything that won't take me closer to my goal. i have mastered the art of silence and avoid talking when i'm not required to. i am calm and in control of everything i am confronted with.

i am able to unleash my inner powers and will power, and use them on my goals. i never look back and constantly move forward towards a higher power for myself. i seek challenges that help me grow constantly. i constantly grow myself by working tirelessly.

i am able to stick to my word and promises, made to both myself and others. i am guarded and careful, but i cannot be bothered to lie or deceive. the only 'deceivery' i ever do, is by underplaying my abilities. i am able to fly under the radar.

i have the ability to work in silence and let my successes speak for themselves. i am capable of multiple such achievements, all of which i constantly work towards. i enjoy the path i have chosen, and every step on the way is like walking on a path of petals. my love for every subject that i study is infinite and i never wish to stop studying.

my goal to grow myself and my love for myself surpasses above and beyond criticisms and interventions from other people. i am absolutely unbothered by others and extremely grateful for all that i possess.

i am grateful to god and the universe for all that i possess and for my vision and ideas that i have too. everything i have, material and immaterial, is extremely humbling- knowing that is all a gift from the universe. despite my blessings and success, i stay humble and kind, never once am i unaware, ignorant and arrogant. i am infinitely grateful for my awareness to the universe. 

subscript for the full moon:

i deserve abundance, knowledge and awareness. i deserve to be extremely hardworking and determined to achieving my goals.

my dreams are my reality and i have the luxury and ability to wish for and work for more.

i deserve to have my talents recognised and my achievements noted. i deserve to get the fruits of my hard work and luck. i deserve to be close to god and spiritually inclined in every thing i do.

i deserve to be able to follow up with my plans and goals, and i deserve to have the ability to work and achieve all that i want. i deserve to get the highest scores in math, physics and chemistry. computer and human languages are an inborn skill to me.

i deserve to qualify for every olympiad i take part in, i deserve to be confident about winning every olympiad i take part in. i deserve success in all my ventures in academics, health and social life.

i deserve to have humility no matter what i possess and i deserve to have mentors and resources to guide me on every step of the way on the path i have chosen. i deserve a bright future in computer science engineering. i deserve to go to the college i have always desired. i deserve to be able to move to the dorms of the college as a top student.

i deserve good physical and mental health. i deserve to be completely rational, yet hopeful in all my ventures in life.

i deserve to be grateful and humble, no matter what i get. i deserve to always be aware of the fact that everything i have is a blessing and a gift, and something that god and the universe wanted me to have.