Starsky and Hutch: Too Close To Home

Go For A Drive

Angel started to fall asleep in my arms and I knew it was time to go home. I carried her to the car and then went to get our things. The drive home was a quiet one as Angel had her head on my shoulder sleeping. Once we got back from the beach we drove home. I got us both ready for bed and as I laid there holding Angel, watching her sleep while I was thinking. I wanted to get some sleep, but I needed to stay awake in case Angel needed me. If that was the real reason at this point. I didn't want to go to sleep because I didn't want to...well maybe tonight would be better.

I just laid there thinking about maybe calling her parents for help or calling Ken to see if Callie and him could come over so I could get some sleep. I knew Ken would come over if I needed help, but I still didn't know if I wanted to admit it just yet. If Ken was here, then at least I would know that Angel would be taken care of if she needed anything but at the same time I still wouldn't sleep because if I heard her scream or start dreaming, I would be up like I have been the past few days. I tried to think about how many hours both of us have slept in the past few days, but I couldn't think straight. All I know is that there haven't been many. Between me waking up in the middle of the night to her having nightmares every night, neither of us have gotten much sleep. So, I laid there just listening to her breathing in hopes that it would calm me down enough so that I could go to sleep.

The next thing I knew I woke up with a jolt again. I sat up, looked around the room and then looked at Angel who was sleeping next to me. I shook my head as I got up to go take a shower. Once I got done, I went to the kitchen to get some coffee. While I was getting a cup, I felt arms go around me from behind. I turn to have Angel lay her head on my chest and I put my arms around her as I let out a sigh. "What woke you up?" I asked her. She shrugged as she held on tighter. I just rubbed her back as we stood there. I thought maybe she had a dream and instead of calling out she just came to find me. After some time, she pulled away, gave me a kiss and then said she wanted to go take a shower. I nodded as I walked with her to the bathroom to help her. I watched her walk to the closet to get some clothes and I thought about how far she has come over the past few weeks. She smiled at me as she walked by to get ready for her shower. Once I knew she was good I walked back into the kitchen to make us some breakfast.

I was getting the food ready as I heard Angel call, "David." "I'm coming," I answered as I walked into the bathroom. "What's up?" I asked. "Can you please help me with my shirt?" I nodded as I walked over to her. Once we got her shirt on, she thanked me and then pulled me in for a hug. She let out a sigh as she gripped my shirt. Something is going on was all I could think of. I rubbed her back as I said, "I have some breakfast ready if you want to eat." She nodded as she let go, looked at me with a smile that didn't reach her eyes and it saddened me to think that she was fighting again. We then walked into the kitchen where she sat at the table while I got the food for us. We sat quietly while we ate our food. After we were done, I leaned on the table as I asked, "Angel, are you up for a drive today?" She looked at me as she answered, "Yay, what do you have in mind?" "Oh, just a drive, just getting out of here for some time and getting some air." "Sure, why not." I smiled at her as I got up from the table and walked to the sink.

I got the dishes cleaned; I was thinking that I hope where we are going will help her instead of making it worse. Maybe I should have talked to her about it before we just went but then I decided that it would be better for her to just be surprised, that way she doesn't back out. I'm scared of what the outcome of this will be, but I feel like it needs to be done. I walked back into the living room as I asked, "Are you ready to go?" She nodded as I helped her up and to the car. I drove around for a while to get the courage to drive where I wanted to go. After a while I started that way and the closer, we got I could see the look of confusion on Angel's face. I heard her as I drove through the gate, "David, why are we at a grave site?" "There is something I would like to show you." "In a graveyard, David really?" "Yep," was all I could say as I could already hear the frustration in Angel's voice.

I parked the car, turned to Angel and looked her in the eyes. "Do you trust me?" I asked her. "You know I trust you." "Angel, yes or no please. Do you trust me?" "Yes Davy, I trust you." I nodded, leaned in to give her a kiss before I walked out of the car. She was relaxing a little, but I could still see that she was not happy to be here. I helped her out of the car, I put my arm around her and took her hand. "This way sweetie." I said as I started leading her to a particular gravestone. The closer we got the more nervous I got but I tried to not show it. All of a sudden Angel stopped dead in her tracks. I looked at her as I saw that she was pale. "Angel," I said softly as rubbed her side. She didn't say anything but just looked straight ahead of her. As I watched her closed, I saw the color come back into her face as anger was starting to set in. She then looked at me and then slapped me across the face as she let go of my hand.

"How dare you bring me here," she spoke with so much anger that it felt like she stabbed me with a knife. Before I could say anything she spoke again, "Why did you bring me here? How did you find out about...? What is this about? You had no right...David you had no right!!!!!" She shouted at me as she pulled away from me. The way she was moving away from and putting her hands in her hair, I was scared she was going to run away from me. So, I spoke softly, "Angel, please listen to......" She cut me off as she pointed a finger right at me. "No, you listen to me!!!!! You had no right to bring me here. I never asked to come here. I don't want to be here. I hate this and right now I'm very strongly disliking you for even thinking that this was a good idea because I'm sure you thought it was a good idea. Well, it wasn't, and I hate it here." I just stood there with my hands in my pockets as I looked down with tears in my eyes. "Well, are you going to say anything, or do I just leave?" I heard her snap as I looked up at her. I saw more anger as she looked at it and I would guess it was because she saw the tears. I cleared my throat before I said, "You are right, I thought it might be a good idea for you to get the closure you deserved after all these years, and I thought it would help. Well, I guess I was wrong." "You guess you were wrong; I bloody know you are wrong." She then slapped me again in the face and turned so I couldn't see her face. I just stood as I watched her whole-body shake and I just wanted to take her in my arms, but I decided not to because she just might run.

I heard her take a sharp breath and I couldn't take it anymore. "Angel, I'm sorry. I should have talked to you before I brought you but," I said in a soft voice but when she then turned to look at me it stopped talking. I could see that she was crying as well. I just wanted to pull her into a tight hug and take it all away from her. "Ya think," she snapped. Okay this anger has to get out one way or another I thought. "Well maybe I should have and maybe I shouldn't have just brought you. But you want to know why I didn't tell you about it?? Well do ya, well I'm going to tell you why. I knew you wouldn't come; I knew you would claim up more and I knew you wouldn't go for the idea." I snapped right back at her. The look of shock was written all over her face. I don't normally raise my voice at her unless it was a hard day at work and then I just don't talk till I get it under control. "Well, you are right about that. I wouldn't have agreed, and I still don't," she said. "You know what, if you don't agree with this then walk back to the car." I said as she just stood there looking at me wondering if I really just said that. "You heard me, walk to the car if you really want to leave." "Fine," she snapped as she started to walk away. I then called out to her, "But know that the reason you are leaving is because you are scared to face the truth." I watched her stop dead in her tracks. She was breathing heavily; she was starting to shake again, and I could tell she knew I was right. "Angel, know that by leaving now you are going to stay in the same cycle that you have been in for years and won't leave till you face it." I called out to her as I hoped I was getting through to her.