It had been a few days since the shower incident. A few days since everyone saw me freak out. It should be more embarrassing than I think it is, but for some reason, I really don't care. I'm more worried about all of the things running through my brain.
I kind of shut myself out from everyone at the compound in the last couple of days. I didn't want to have another episode and hurt someone. Bruce and Natasha put that idea in my head after they expressed their concerns for my mental health. I shared those same concerns, but I don't think it was fair of me to unload all of those memories onto someone else. It was my burden to carry, no one else's.
I also didn't understand why everyone was so concerned about my well-being all of a sudden. At Hydra, they just threw us in cells and were like, "Good luck, bitches." Here, everyone seems to be on edge when I'm around, almost like they are afraid to say things that might set me off.
A knock on the door pulls me out of my thoughts. Someone has come every few hours or so during the day to make sure I'm okay. Bruce has come once a day to make sure that none of my wounds from my fight on the hellicarrier are getting infected, and probably also to check on me mentally, but he won't admit that. Having people care is a new thing for me, and it's nice, don't get me wrong, but I just want to be left alone.
All of these things are being thrown at me all at once and I just want time to process it alone, without anyone coming to see if I'm okay. Hence why I've locked myself in my room for the day.
"JARVIS, unlock the door for Bruce please," I say and wait for the nice doctor to walk in. Instead, I am met with the eyes of the last person I expected to be walking through my door.
"You really should get out of your room more," Tony said, making his way to sit in the chair by the desk.
"And you should really learn how to not be an asshole," I said, tilting my head with a sarcastic smile. Tony looked down and started playing with hands, probably rethinking this entire conversation. I didn't want to talk to him in the first place, so if he could just walk out, that would be super.
"Okay, I probably deserve that," he responds. I only give him a little hum in agreement. He is not exactly the person I want to be with right now. I just need to be alone for a little longer.
"This isn't exactly a position that I expected myself to be in. You have to understand my reaction to this," Tony explains.
"Because I was expecting this situation? I wasn't told anything until you burst through the doors and tried sticking a needle in my arm," I told him. He was an absolutely clueless man.
"That's not what I'm saying."
"Well, that is what it sounds like."
"I just didn't know that I had a daughter, much less a grown-up one. I don't know what to do in this situation. I don't know how to act around you, and I don't even know if you want me in your life," Tony says.
"Well, I don't know any of those things either. I haven't been able to process any of this. I was a mindless servant of an organization that wanted to take over the world. Do you think that you are the only one who has things to deal with?" I ask. He must be the most self-centered person if he really thinks that he is the only one with things going on in his life. Everyone has their issues. Some people are just better at dealing with them than others.
"You're putting words in my mouth that were never there. I don't want to fight with you. I just want to know what you want?" he says. That's the problem, I have no idea what I want. I don't even know what options there are for me. I keep pushing everyone ith answers for me away.
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Project Alpha
FanfictionAria, captured by Hydra when she was just a little girl, is forced into missions. Only fate will tell what is in store for her as she tries to navigate between right and wrong.
