I Love You Since Then

18

I Love You Since Then
/Chapter Eighteen/

Kaiden

I feel like a statue rooted in place as I stare at her peacefully sleeping face. She really has such angelic features.

One of the things I love about her.

Her bare face itself is a beauty, and even more beautiful when she wears make up. When I was able to move my feet, I took a step towards her side and sat on the bed carefully not wanting to wake her serene sleep.

My hand get its way and stroke her hair, all the way to her eyebrows, to her nose, and I couldn't help pinching it lightly. My fingers goes down to her cheeks, naaalala ko kung gaano siya lalong gumaganda sa tuwing namumula iyon.

How I love to make her blush when chance lets me.

"I'm sorry because you have to be with me when you don't want to." Habang sinasabi ang mga katagang 'yon ay parang may kung anong mabigat na nakadagan sa aking dibdib. It feel so heavy.

Kung nalaman ko lang agad na ikaw pala ang babaeng sinabi ng mga magulang ko na pakakasalan ko, sana ay may nagawa ako para pigilan iyon para hindi alisin sa'yo ang kalayaan na mahalin at maikasal sa lalaking gusto mo at pipiliin ng puso mo.

Sana ako ang piliin mo.

As much as I wanted you to choose to be with me, I can't be selfish and take your choices away from you.

But I already did. There's no point of regretting it now, is there?

Wala rin akong ideya, nais ko lang na tulungan ang pamilya ko. Ang kompanyang ipinundar pa ng aking lolo. At 'yon ay sa pamamagitan ng pagpapakasal sa babaeng wala din akong ideya kung sino.

Ikaw pala ang tinutukoy nila.

It turns out na kilala ko pala ang babaeng tinutukoy nila.

Bago ang kasal, sinabi ko sa sarili ko na kailangang lumayo na ako sa'yo at tigilan na ang pagmamahal ko sa'yo mula sa malayo. Pero ngayon ay iba ang nais na laro ng tadhana.

Sa'yo lang pala ako muling iibig.

But, despite the fact that I have the opportunity to be with you, to be this near to you. I'm still unable to freely express my feelings. How much I care, how much I love you, Shane, it aches.

Please love me back.

Dumako ang paningin ko sa kaniyang labi. The first time that our lips touched, It was such a bliss of moment. Hindi ko pinigilan ang sarili na idampi ang aking labi sa kaniya, nang akin na sana itong aalisin ay laking gulat ko sa palad niya na humaplos sa aking pisngi. I was too shock to even move a muscle.

It was a soft touch.

I can't remember how many times you've caught me off guard, in such positions. So many times already like right now, ang kalahati ng aking katawan ay nakakubabaw sa'yo habang hawak mo ang aking pisngi. You're staring at me with those half open tantalizing eyes of yours. I can't look away. My eyes doesn't want to leave yours.

Kanina pa ba ito gising?

My heart is pounding in a very fast pace and It feels like my breathing is being overtaken by something I couldn't explain. Inside of me, my heart is thumping so loud. I'm sure you can feel and even hear it because my body is barely brushed against yours.

You are making me nervous for some reason.

"You're wrong." She whispered in a breathy and soft low voice. My brows arched kasabay ang ilang mariin kong paglunok.