Hell And Silence

42) Last Day Here

I wake up by a sleeping Daniel face in front of me. The alarm has woken us both up.

"Goodmorning," I purr and smile.

His eyes open, those grey blue orbs staring into my soul. A smile slowly begins to appear on his soft lips.
"Goodmorning...,"

He sits up and gazes around the room, just to make sure where he is. My room is full of boxes with my stuff in them.

"Did we fall asleep?" He asks.
"Yeah...,"
"You sure, yo-... I mean, Jill is going to be ok with this?"
"She wants me to live as much as I can right now. This whole nostalgia thing seems to be one of the symptoms to or something...,"

Daniel chuckles.
"Weird way to see cancer,"
"It's a little annoying that EVERYTHING has to be a thing she'll remember,"
"But imagine being in her position. You're probably like a daughter to her,"
"Good point,"

It felt a little better to joke about it. Yes, I know, I'm a terrible person for doing so but it feels better when we don't take it seriously all the time. Deep in me, I know how serious it is.
Jill is going to DIE!

But I think Daniel notices that in me too.
I joke about it, I guess, so I don't have to break down and cry about it.

We're holding hands as we exit my room.

As we enter the kitchen, we're immediately greeted by Jill's smile.
"Hey," She grins.

I know what she thinks, just oh god, NO!
"Hey, Jill...," Daniel greets with a nice smile but sad eyes.

Her eyes fills with wonder as he says her name.
"I, I told him," I explain.
"Oh,"
"I'm sorry," He mumbles and stares down at his feet.

Jill gets up from her chair and hugs him, forcing his hand to let go of mine.
"It's ok, my dear,"

But her eyes tells me it isn't. She has problems getting it herself.

Daniel is a little taller than Jill so it's pretty funny to look at. He doesn't seem to know what to do at first, but he ends up hugging her back.
Here I am left to stare.

When Jill lets go of Daniel, she just glances him in the eyes and has her hands on his shoulders.
"You seem like a nice boy. Amy is lucky to have you in her life...,"
"You don't have anyone?"
"I used to but he passed years ago. But I don't need someone, I'm strong enough,"

Wow.
That really tore me apart hearing.

We eat our breakfast in silence until it's time to go to school. Daniel's car is still parked where it was left.

We enter the car and drive off to school

It's Friday. The last time I'll ever see Jill.
Daniel and the gang has helped me through it. We're both taking my last boxes to his car.

Daniel and I both called school to say that we're sick so we could spend the day helping me move.

Looking at the window, I see Jill staring at us.
"I'll get this one, you should go and talk to Jill, Amy," He insists and grabs the box that I held in my hands.
"Ok,"

I run into the house, where Jill will die alone.

"Hey," I sigh.
Jill is still staring out of the window.
"Hey...,"
"How are you doing?"
"Dying,"
"Oh,"
"My cells aren't having their time of their lives either," She chuckles, wiping away her tears with a cloth.

I laugh.
"Are you still ok with this?" I ask.
"Of course I'm not, but I'll have to think about what's best for you," She admits, finally looking me in the eyes.
"Thank you, Jill...,"
"You're welcome,"