Sarah Paulson one-shots: You & Her

Sara

I am so excited to see Sarah! She has been away for a couple of days filming scenes in New Orleans.

I was laying on the couch, reading little women when she came home from work. "Hiya Sarah, you alright?" I greeted her as she placed her bag on the kitchen counter and leaned against it putting her head in her hands. 

She didn't say anything, just nodded. I looked at her and she looked as though she was about to cry. I put my book down on the coffee table and sat up. "Hey, is everything alright?" 

She shook her head, "Sarah, look at me please" she slowly looked up, her eyes brimmed with tears. I knew something was up, I just needed to try and get it out of her. 

"Love, tell me what's going on"

"It's nothing Y/N, don't worry about me" she sniffled.

"You know I can't help but worry. You're clearly upset, please talk to me"

She sighed, "stop pushing me Y/N. I don't want to talk!" she snapped. I was taken aback, she's never spoken to me in this way before. But me being me, I kept asking.

"Sarah no, I'm not going to let you just deal with things by yourself. I'm here for a reason!"

"I know you are! Sometimes I do just need to deal with things by myself! Please, just leave me alone"

She began to cry harder so I stood up and walked over to her, neglecting her wishes. I pulled her into my embrace and stroked her hair comforting her. She accepted my gesture thankfully.

I let her cry hard into my chest. I know she really needs me to be there for her right now. I'm not mad at her for snapping as I know she doesn't mean it. 

I hold her as close as possible, looking down at her this upset makes my heart ache. My poor Sarah, she really needs a break.

"I'm sorry for shouting" she whispered after I held her for a while.

"Sarah, don't worry about it. Are you ready to talk yet?" she pulled away and nodded.

"I'm just so tired Y/N. I feel like I'm not doing a good enough job. I'm worried that I'm disappointing Ryan and everyone else. What if I'm not good enough to be an actress anymore?"

She has been working on American horror story season 3, which is a pretty heavy season to do. Especially after having to cope with the stress of being Lana Winters part-time.

"Oh, my Sarah. You are good enough! You always have been and always will be! Never ever doubt yourself. Just think about how many people love you, you are sensational"

She smiled at me softly.

"You always know exactly what to say" she sighed. I wrapped my arms around her waist.

"Let me just say this again. I don't know anyone else in the world who is capable of such amazing things. Could you imagine anyone else portraying the roles you have done in all your time as an actress? These roles are made for YOU, Ms Sarah Catharine Paulson"

"It's not just that. I feel like I'm not good enough for you. I'm never here because I'm always working on something. I just feel as though I'm neglecting you and what sort of a girlfriend is that?" she began to cry again.

"What do you mean you're neglecting me? When we got together, I knew that there would be times when I can't see you because you were busy. I understand that you have commitments. Besides, I could always come with you to film so you aren't alone"

"But it wouldn't be the same, I'd still be busy filming. And I wouldn't want you to end up liking someone better than me, all my ahs friends are incredible people... much better than I am"

I can't believe those words just came out of her mouth. "Sarah, my heart is for you and you only. Don't get me wrong, I would love to meet the people you work with but, I would never love anyone more than I love you. You are my world. Please stop doubting yourself!"

"How do I know that you're telling the truth Y/N?"

"Sarah, you're the poet in my heart. Never change, and don't you ever stop!" 

"My favourite song" she whispered. I nodded and she smiled at me before cupping my cheek with her soft hand. "I love you so much Y/N, thank you" she whispered again before kissing me with her perfect lips.

"I love you too Sarah Paulson"