Anidita: Falling Apart

But given unsought is better

(Do not miss the note at bottom)

Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt that the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt I love

At Das Baari, Krishnanagar....

Thakuma's POV

It is all my fault.....all my fault" I fell down on the couch with a deep sigh "Despite knowing how her mind functions.....I put up the proposal of you two's marriage. But......but.... what could have I done, sooner or later I had to do it.... And.....and all I just wanted her is to move out of her bitter agonizing past.....but observing her situation.....i feel what has happened is all because of me."

Abhas (holding her shoulder blade)- Thakuma, dont be so upset.....please......your intention was right but we both are familiar with Bondita's situation, we must allow her some time.....it is a high fever, I guess, she got infected after an entire day's fast and fatigue yet staying away till late night for the religious function.

Indeed you are right Abhas" I gave a sad chuckle and continued with moist eyes "These are the factors that caused her high fever, but I am equally responsible for her condition. We both know how Bondita tends to overthink upon a matter too deeply and.......

Abhas (cutting in)- And so she is a barrister. It's the tendency of her nature to overthink upon a situation while analysing both the aspects of the coin to reach upon a justified conclusion and get justice to the righteous.

"But my child....." I replied gritting my teeth "All these years Bondita has persistently struggled with her conscience, her dilemmas, this society, and now admitting the fact that she and her former landlord barrister husband have finally separated, is still not easy to deal with.

Abhas- That goes without saying Thakuma, she can never come into terms with her past, it would be equally difficult for her to deal that those series of setbacks even if both had not met occasionally. I know Bondita can never even think of loving someone else the way she did to Anirudh Babu, and I don't have any objections to it either. Now, her mental condition is taking a toll over her physical heath, but life is not always a court drama....where hearings are held based on facts and evidences only" He faced away, pausing for a while then spoke up "Her rejection of our marriage did not surprise me at all, infact we both had expected it to be the most anticipated response from her end. Isnt it Thakuma?"

"So you said Harikanta Babu wants you to marry" I drew a deep sigh, nodding in agreement "Mrina....what was her name?

Abhas (despondently)- Mrinalini.....my step mother's distant relative.

"Fair enough" I muttered in a down casted tone giving up hope "So Son, when are you tying the knot?"

Abhas (in an astonished tone) - But Thakuma how come the point of tying knot with Mrinalini or whoever girl arise? I turned down his offer straight away.

What!!!" I stuttered widening up my eyes with shock at his unanticipated reply "But why did you reject your father's proposal? He must have chosen her thinking of your preference only.

(pause)

"Abhas" I turned him to face me "Son, you should try to understand his situation. Even if your relationship with your father is unpleasant. Harikanta babu is after all your own father, not an enemy but your well-wisher.

Abhas- I know he is not my enemy....but he does not behave like a family either so he is my father for namesake, since he opted to become a husband of his other one and father her children. Since, then he is hardly bothered of my opinion or my wishes....neither does he care except his step wife and my step siblings who are waiting to seize the entire property and his treasury under them without slipping it to an external grasp. Subsequently, she is pressing her relative on me....(in a sarcastic tone) As if I cant sustain myself without his property.