Anidita: Falling Apart

Get thee to nunnery

"O what men dare do! What men may do! What men daily do, not knowing what they do!"

Author's POV
At canteen area......

Anirudh (sipping coffee) - Bondita in your absence, I can't express how lonely I felt after you left. I used to imagine myself tying your shoe laces....the coco phones would remind me of our sweet and sour conversations. I missed those moments Bondita. All these years I so miss the sweetness of the coffee prepared by you everyday, it used to rejuvenate my senses and made my every dull morning special. Trust me, all these years I have reaped what I sowed.

Bondita (putting down her cup) - "Toh fir apki kawpi...nehi nehi, coffee fir se bana k lau na?" Do you remember the last time when I was excited to make coffee for you? yes, on the same day just a couple of hrs. prior to your auspicious wedding eve. We were together at kitchen after you said it's no use getting angry on me. My 12yr old self was so particular not to enrage you, she asked cheerfully but you denied. I guess you were preparing yourself to drink that delicious lactoderm coffee made by your preferred wife's wonderful hands isn't it? Infact, it took me a lot of time to learn and adjust myself into the role of an accomplished housewife but I am sure had Manorama stayed back she would have learned to adjust herself in the role of an accomplished housewife sooner than me; and those coco-phones, would also lie somewhere outside your room in dust worthless like it used to since the day you threw it angrily on my direction after picking it up when somehow I had gathered myself up to return and question a dishevelled you rocking at your study room chair, after accepting the harsh reality of my fate envisioning the mature exchange of sympathies between a new mature real like fake couple in their bedroom.

Anirudh (gasping as his past hit again his present) - "tum nehi banaogi meri coffee. Mera matlab hai meri coffee mai banaoonga tumhare sath milkar bana lenge. Tum janti ho na bondita mai jo karta hu tumhare bhale k liye karta hu. Mera gussa, mera har kadam sirf tumhari bhalai k liye hota hai" Bondita whatever I did was for your overall welfare, my anger, every step that I took was for your betterment only. I was feeling so guilty that night after my wedding with Manorama, I was constantly thinking about that principal's complaint and with a massive rock on my heart, I threw those coco shells in your direction, to drive you away from me as I could not see you moving to the wrong direction.Thus, I made you drink the poison in the form of bitter medicine.

Bondita (frowning) - so you know now I also reaped what I sowed. But, barrister babu, do you even realize the difference between a bitter medicine and venom? And why to feed me with a poison when you decided to voluntarily prepare the coffee, I mean the bitter medicine together. I waited to know the reason behind your feeding me the venom that night. Didn't I?

Anirudh (gritting his teeth) - Hold on, are you indirectly trying to blame me for your obsessive tantrums with your twisted words Bondita? I too consumed the poison by feeding you the poison. Sometimes we do have to consume bitter medicine depending on the type of illness. I couldn't bear to see you moving in the wrong direction thus I made you drink the poison which works as an antidote cutting the effect of another poison. I simply intended to remind you of your potential you were wasting involving yourself in those baseless competitions. Now please stop victimizing yourself. I am tired of listening to your reiteration of that one instance of the night over and over. You were not the only victim that night. There's no competition going on as to prove who suffered more due to whom? I see you don't trust our man ka rishta anymore, a bond lot more than a spouse relationship. But, atleast respect which once existed.