Anidita: Falling Apart

Half Truths "to win Us to our Harm"

"Instruments of darkness" often tell half-truths "to win us to our harm"

After a week

In RC Haveli, Tulsipur....

Anirudh's POV

Flashback

Anirudh - badle mey bus itna chahiye Dugga ma ki mujhe meri pehli wali Bondita wapas mil jaye jiska lakshya Barrister Babu banna tha. Koi aadarsh Patni ya sulakshana bahu bankar seemit reh jana nehi. Lauta dijiye na Dugga ma woh Bondita jo andhero mey jugnuo ki tarah chamkna chahti thi. Paramparao k andhero mey khona nehi. Lauta dijiye na Dugga ma woh Bondita. Woh Bondita jo tark karti thi, kutark nehi. Lauta dijiye na woh Bondita jo puri bheed se alag thi. Anokhi thi. Aaj meri v zid hai aapse. Zid hai Anirudh Roy Chaudhary ki Bondita ki Dugga ma se apni Dugga ma se k jab tak aap mujhe meri pehli wali Bondita nehi lauta deti tab tak Bondita se dur rehne ka zeher haste haste peeta rahunga. Yehi rahunga apke samne rahunga. Sarey gam sari peedayein. Sari yaatnaye jhelta rahunga. Sarey laanchan sehta rahunga. Sarey apman sehta rahunga. Tab tak jab tak aap mujhe meri pehli wali Bondita nehi lauta deti. Lauta dijiye na Dugga ma. Mai nehi hatunga yaha se. Mai apne iraade se tas se mas tak nehi hunga kyuki mai jaanta hu mai sahi hu. Abhi sabko lag raha hoga Bondita ko, kaka ko, purey samaaj ko lag raha hoga k mai galat hu lekin aap jaanti hai na Dugga ma k mai sahi hu. Isliye mai yehi rahunga taki bhawaishya mey. Bhawishya mey sirf mai nehi puri duniya keh sake k woh dekho Barrister babu Bondita aa rahi hai. Barrister Babu Bondita Dugga ma. Barrister Babu Bondita.

Flashback ends......

You wanted your old Bondita back. The Bondita who wished to become a firefly lighting up the darkness and not the one to lose her way into it.
You wished for the Bondita who was logical in her arguments and not the one who indulged herself into baseless illogical arguments. You told Dugga ma you would happily drink the poison of staying away from Bondita and tolerate all pains, jibes and insults of society untill you get back your Bondita.
So, you should be happy today for Dugga Ma fulfilled this wish of yours by sending only Barrister Babu Bondita in your life for whome you sacrificed so much. You should be rejoicing over your achievement and unwavering determination towards commitment of Bondita's welfare and bright future moved Dugga Ma and she proved you were right and Bondita, your uncle and the condemning section of society was wrong but you the most inexperienced pressurized human 22 yr old Anirudh Roy Chaudhary was right. Hence, Congratulations my victorious opponent. Barrister Babu Bondita came. Barrister Babu Bondita.

"You? Now? I shrieked out of shock as the entity in my barrister robe poked me from behind transcribing my past thoughts to my present breaking my contemplation. "Why have you come at this point of juncture?"

Barrister Alter ego (sly smirk, winking)- Why? cant I come? Were you expecting someone else this time too?"

"Whom will I expect now?.... I am caught up with something important so you please leave, I don't have time to listen to your rubbish now" I frowned out of irritation trying to dismiss my own alter existence.