Anidita: Falling Apart

Sunlight & Dark Knight

"All days are nights to see till I see thee, and nights bright days when dreams do show thee me."

Bondita's POV

It has been 10 long yrs since I wrote any letter to him. I had never thought even in my wildest dreams, the first thing after becoming a barrister and fulfilling our precious dream, I would do is....is (with a heavy heart) to prepare legal separation papers to part my ways from that very man whose dream was to see me becoming a barrister, the one who held the place of my guardian after departure of my father, my mother during my difficult months, my protector who stood like a shield, my first mentor- A VERY HARSH ONE INDEED, my 24/7 companion who shared his dreams with me, my friend and guide who laughed and cried with me sharing his longing for the lost people of his life through his eyes which spoke louder than words....and lastly the HUSBAND he never was and my....SOMEONE MORE THAN ANYONE giving an unforgettable pain of a OUTRAGING?? An agony that is to remain irreplaceable in my present life forever.
A sharp stream of pain ran in the middle of chest even today (sighs)

Tupur (yelling) - Eyi Bonditaaaaa didiiiiii where are you lost? Thinking about your....??? Still???Hey Dugga Maa (slapping her right hand lightly on the head)

"I gasped as my chain of thoughts were broken by my younger cousin who pulled me out of my past....eeerrrggghh... why does it emerge every now and then I wonder?"

"No...No I am not thinking of anyone, just wondering how soon the time flies and also of my convocation speech... I nervously said as she guessed it right.

Tupur- hhhmm...yup I know that ...stop giving me excuses, I mean why do you still waste your time for the man to whom you meant a burden all through his life? Get ready for its already 8 AM. Do you wish to attend your long and most awaited moment, after the program is over and all other guests leave? It will take time to reach the university from here.

Lately, after my final results came out, I left the small student girl's hostel and went to Krishnanagar but had to return for the convocation ceremony a day before with my Thakuma and Tupur waiting at a small guest house that belonged to one of her acquaintance. It was a special day for my Thakuma as well because she is the one who stood thick and thin by my side after I left my unreal world behind.

Thakuma, a relentless fighter woman of her age, rare to find in an era when the regressive male dominated society treated single woman (rather a dumped bride by her groom on the very day of her marriage) as a social outcast getting to hear countless jibes, insults, public humiliation and even boycott. But she is the woman who also remained humble to many like her and caressed my head lovingly while taking my entire responsibility as a guardian after I went to stay at my 'Maika', an inspiration to me since she is the only one whom I grew up watching as to how to face back when you are pushed to the edge. Finally, I got a lap to lay down my head and cry on, after my own mother denied to lend me her lap as she felt the weight of my head too heavy to hold.

"Bonditaaaa....ei bonditaaa....kothai tui? " Came a dominant female voice as it barged into my room breaking my another string of thoughts as I stood ready infront of the mirror for my special day "Are you done? Shashidhar has gone to call the taxi".

Thakuma - What is wrong wit....? Oh my child how elegant and divine you look in this light green saree and academic dress (adoring Bondita with moist eyes and blessing her as the latter bent down to touch her feet) May you stay happy, stay healthy and achieve more success. May you succeed bringing consistent progress for the upliftment of the deprived sections of the society that has been looked down upon and mistreated since long....but that needs to be done with a faster pace dear and for that you need to reach to your university before the award ceremony begins.