Anidita: Falling Apart

Head, Heart & Dastak

Let every eye negotiate for itself

And trust no agent; for Beauty is a witch against whose charms faith melteth in blood"

Author' POV contd....

Bondita (with a calm smile) - "aisi kya chij ho sakti hai" So Barrister babu, recalling our concluding coffee conversation of your big day 10yrs back, post your return from your mother in law after getting an official approval for your big sacrificial step to marry Manorama for me, do you remember how I went quite curious & a slight suspicious of your promised surprise gifts that made me unconscious later on?

Anirudh (huffing) - "Sochti hi rahogi ya tayyar bhi hona hai Manorama ki shaadi mey jana hai na?" Yes, Bondita I grinned shrewdly asking you to stop thinking further and get ready for Manorama's wedding.
Bondita I am wondering if I am possessed or what is wrong with me! I didn't wish to yell out on you now or claim my authority over you. You are not a commodity or a trophy you think yourself to be of my social work. If I can never give you of what you wished then why am I even asking for your opinions? I am certainly different from other men, a man of my words and promises I used but I have felt myself changing with time. I am the older and more mature one so whatever I said since the beginning has always been right, then why is my perception about certain things changed suddenly? Bondita this is not a sudden change. It has changed with this long passage of ten years.

Bondita (with an empty laugh) - Barrister babu I have been been a witness to your changing principles within split of seconds. The shallow society is a lie but Change is the only constant you yourself preached hence 10 yrs back or not, your perception of certain things has always remained as constant as your camouflaged nature with time. Your perception of me being your responsibility in the beginning of our circumstances driven marriage remained as constant as a year later of it's completion. On the contrary, your responsibility got upgraded to special and bigger one expanding itself to "only for 12yr old myself's overall welfare and bright future", and being the younger and immature physically and mentally in a fake relationship has its own drawbacks when the older and more mature one prefers a peer and not so fake mature partner like himself. Fair enough.

That's how world works, the stronger always feeds on the weaker, and the entire world knows how different you are from other men with context to your big words and contradictory actions in keeping promises of surprising 12yr myself with gifts. As far as seeking my opinion was concerned, it had always been a rare occasion. Specifically, when you had to fight for my education and rehabilitation of my heera mandi companions. As you insisted of me being your biggest and special responsibility which I too thought of I was that even on the morning of your wedding day. Going ahead, you proved me to be a trophy of your social work by rejoicing proudly when I displayed myself before the queen as a mentally unstable but first girl to attend school in Tulsipur. I was a precious diamond right! That deserves a display by its owner. You being possessed by your peer preferred wife and not even realizing you are one, speaks of your innocent han nature Sir babu, a rare skill that has helped you maintaining the grip on your unwavering intelligent society since a decade now.

Anirudh - Done. You have skilfully learnt to speak on long case researches alongwith your privilege card issued by your vengeful pishi thakuma."

Bondita (with a calm smile) - Says who? My mentor and an idol of inspiration privileged with soft manipulative skills alongside an eternal brave social army?