I'm tired of life. I was happy yesterday n now I'm even worse than sad. I feel depressed. Not just saying depressed really depressed. I wanna talk about it at the same time I don't wanna.
Basically my dad hit my mom. It's not... new, yet it hurts the same. And I couldn't do anything. The hopelessness was shitty. I felt traumatized. I can't sleep peacefully I don't feel like eating. N most importantly I can't stop crying.
It's been ages since I cried this bad.
It's like if I feel happy for a moment I'll have sadness lasting ten folds of it.
I wrote today. I was happy about it too. But now it feels like it didn't existed in the first place.
I feel like a baby wanted to have comforting hugs and not wanna leave the embrace fora long time. I feel shit.
I feel like I'm turning... suicidal. Which I'm not!
But it hurts so bad!!!
Bye
