So today was new year in Hindus. I'm a Hindu. So yea. I didn't wear some good dress or anything. I did what I do normally. Just woke up a bit early. Won't say too early hut yea.
My mom had already done all the work. So I didn't had anything to do. I watched after we fell. It's my current comfort movie.
It might have too many sensual scenes but it's a really comfort movie. Because I feel like I'm a little younger and female version of hardin Scott.
Why?
Because he's a fuck up. I'm too. He's a mess. I'm too. He holds grudges. I do too. He doesn't forgive. So don't I.
And I was being pissed at this. But then I realized where his mistakes took him. And I was walking on the same path.
But not forgiving someone I was fucking myself up more. It's about us moving on for our sake. Not others. And most of the time I seem to forget that.
I won't say I don't hold grudges I do. And I do for a long time. But I can sure forgive someone. Might be not whole heartedly but I can try.
For betterment of myself. Gosh!
It feels so light after writing this. As if I've truly forgiven everyone.
Last night I didn't get a chance to talk with myself n I felt a lil sad about it. And my sister is being persistent about me finding myself a career now.
I had a plan on going to a college campus for information with my guy friend. The only one who seems to he there for me now. So I wanted to spend more time with him. But turns out it's hard. Sigh.
UT we'll find a way I guess. Let's see. Depends on my mood swings which seem to be going on full swing.
That's all.
