Kat skipped school on Friday. :(
Friday was also the day I choose to bring in two cupcakes for her and Jackie to try out.
She wasn't there.
Plus, all week I've been freaking out trying to deal with getting Lucas to talk to me, and I heard Rico Sagatori is going to ask me out.
All Friday I had to deal with Rico just coming up to me, and saying hi.
Nothing else.
Just hi.
Jackie yelled at me saying that I should just give him a chance, but you know what?
I have him multiple chances. All he does is sit there. There's no chemistry. I don't feel for him like I do with Lucas.
Everybody makes me feel like its my fault that I'm not falling head over heels for him.
It's not even the fact that he looks like a penguin. It's that every time we talk he gets all shy, turns red, and loses all ability to speak.
I did like him for two days too. I can't believe I told Kat and Jackie, though.
It turned out to be a mistake.
Now Kat makes faces every time he says hi, which I mentioned is the ONLY thing he ever says.
It bugs me. I hate it when she makes that face.
I'm sorry guys. I don't like him!
I'm not gonna pretend like I do, just to make everyone happy!
I felt how it feels when you find out someone you like was just pretending to make you feel better.
Acting.
When it happened to me, I remember wishing that he had just been honest with me.
So that's what I'm doing.
I wish everybody would just shut the fuck up about it!
What's worse, is that I feel like I Lat had been there she would have done something.
She would have MADE me talk to Lucas, because she knew how much I really wanted too.
She would have marched up to Rico, and said ," Back the fuck off buddy!" She would have done that done that for me.
She wouldn't have let me give up on Lucas.
Which is what I did Friday.
How can I keep chasing someone who knows I like him, but doesn't do anything?
I just need to tell him how I feel one last time.
Which is what I want to do Monday.
I feel like if I'm gonna give up, then I need to give up knowing that it really wasn't going to happen.
Not give up wondering.
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Non-FictionMy names Delia. I know not really the right way to start off a story, but I believe my story revolves a lot around it. You see so much has happened since I entered sixth grade, that I couldn't let it go undocumented. So this is my story along with m...
