HOMOPHOBIA [BXB]

CHAPTER 35

LEO'S POV

I chuckled sadly feeling the pain in my head increase with each passing second. One, because they hit me on the head before getting me here and two, all the thoughts wandering in my head are no help either.

I threw my head back staring up at the bulb hanging above. I feel blank, totally blank. I don't even know what to think about anymore due to the amount of thoughts in my head which is giving me headache.

I blamed myself since the day Tom passed away that it was me, the so called reason why they killed him. I cried and cried for months and all of a sudden, I lost my mom in a road accident.

I felt hopeless. Dad was there to support me even though he himself was equally suffering but losing two people I love dearly is a nightmare. It felt like I don't even have a reason to live anymore.

I was not myself until the high school graduation. I felt happy when I graduated high school as was excited to get into the university I like but somewhere inside I wished my mom to be there with me but I knew it's impossible.

I cried that day after reaching home that if only Tom was still alive...he would have graduated along with me but not everything goes according to our plan.

I learnt to move on and let go of my past how much ever hard it is because at the end of the day we can do nothing with our past. We can't rectify any of our mistakes or bring our loved ones back to life so instead we should work on how to make our future better.

There was a time when I stopped getting nightmares but again a few things happened which triggered me leading to all the bad memories to eat me alive.

I might look normal and happy but that's not always the case.. I still to this day blame myself for Tom's death.
Now, that I got to know his mom killed herself due to her son's death then I obviously am blaming myself again.

I've never felt genuinely happy until I met Rome. I loved his presence around me in the start and fell in love with him without even realising and the fact that he reciprocated my feelings thrilled me.

I moved on from Tom accepting the reality and was waiting to find a love and that's when Rome came into my life. He made me feel things I once felt only for Tom. He was a happy pill and a safe place for me.

Home.

He's my home and I'm trying my best to show out my real feelings to him hoping that he feels the same about how I feel about him but I got kidnapped now.

I sighed looking straight at the table in front of me and let out a sigh. I don't have any hope that I would get out of here alive. I'm scared... I did say him to kill me so confidently but I'm scared to die.

I chuckled to myself biting my lip so that I won't start to cry again. My mind is a mess. I don't know anything anymore. I want to die to get rid of the guilt inside me which is building up every day but again... A part of me says that it wasn't my fault and I need to try to move on and be happy again.

I don't know what to do and who to believe. A few making me feel more guilty than I already am and a few say that it isn't my fault.

I heard the door open all of a sudden and flinched glancing behind me.
It was the mask guy who asked me for directions the other day. I sighed knowing very well he's the one who stalked me because I've met him in the amusement park too.

I was too dumb to realise it. He sat on the chair Tom's dad previously sat on and took off his mask revealing his face to me. I stared at him blankly as I already saw his face before in the amusement park.

"Alex."

He mumbled and I understood that it's his name. I took in a deep breath nodding and looked away. So, all these was planned really well since the start huh? Wow.