His sunflower

chapter 14

Abby's pov

I woke up with a massive headache. Mental note to ask Sierra or Maddy what I did last night. I don't think I even want to know. When I got to school it was normal but Josh seemed clingy. I don't know it was weird. We were walking in the hallways and then he pulled me into an "abandoned" classroom. At first we were just talking you know. It was normal ish. Then he started getting closer and I thought he was just trying to be smooth you know. Make a move and I was right but he tried taking it farther.

He put his hands under my shirt. Started to roughly squeeze my boob. Enough to where it hurt. I tried pushing him off but he hit my arm and moved his hands to my waist. I don't care that he hit me i'm not letting him take this somewhere I don't want it to go. I pulled back and stared at him. Mouth open. Amazed at what just happened.

"What. the. fuck."

"What?"

"What was that!"

"I wanted an intimate moment with my girlfriend. so what? sue me."

"Usually that happens with CONSENT. I clearly didn't want to take it that far."

"Abby. Dear. We know you want it. We all know you've fantasied me naked. All up on you. Stop fighting it."

"Stop fighting it? Are you fucking serious?! I don't want to sleep with you Josh. We've dated a week. I'm not ready for that."

"Fine. Then why are we dating?"

"I don't know anymore"

Instead of answering he came up to me. Too close for what just happened.

"Abby. I don't know who you think you are. but I always get what I want. Whether the person consents to it or not."

I slapped him. I really slapped him. Across the face too. It felt nice. But he hit me back. Hard.

"Don't fucking disrespect me Abby. We all know you're a whore who wants to fuck me. Stop acting all innocent."

He slapped me. Then called me a whore?! Nah man he's the definition of a freaking man whore. Who is he to talk to me like that.

"We need to break up." I say gritting my teeth trying not to cry from the sting

"No"

"Yes. I'm breaking up with you. stay. away. from. me."

"You will regret this Abby. No one gets away with doing me wrong. Fuck you"

He walked away and I was able to breath.

I walk to my next class silently. Not talking to anybody. I was quiet for the whole school day. Nervous that if I talked to someone the tears would come. I didn't know what to do.

The end of the school day came painfully slow. I took the bus home since my mom drove me to school and hoped that Johnathan would leave me alone today. As much as he annoys me I think I'd start crying if he talked to me after what happened.

"Hey, Abby" Johnathan sat next to me on the bus. I tried to give him a small smile to say I heard him but don't want to talk. "How come you've been so quiet today? I thought Josh made you all happy and stuff"

"I don't want to talk about Josh right now Johnathan." I tried to say as calmly as I could.

"What did he do?" Johnathan seemed mad. Like really mad

"He didn't do anything" my voice got a little wobbly but I managed to calm myself a bit "please just drop it. Okay?"

Johnathan seemed to get the hint because he backed off. I turned to look out the window and allowed a few tears to fall before I wiped them off my face and got off the bus.

When I walked through the door my mother and Matt were waiting for me.

"Hey honey. How was your day?"

"Good mom how was yours?"

"Pretty good. I have to go to the store. Need anything?"

"Nope all good. See you soon" I gave her a kiss on the cheek and went to my room.

I heard the front door closed and prayed to God that Matt went with her. I had to deal with Josh I don't need to deal with him too.

"Abby come down here please!"

Oh yay. Matt's still here.

"coming!"

What does he want? What could he possibly want.? Why couldn't Jacob be home? Why'd he have to get a stupid girlfriend who he used as an excuse to leave? Why'd it have to be me who's stuck with him?

"What's up?"

"I need to have a conversation with you"

"okay..?" where is this going?

"I see how you look at me. You know i'm here for something that isn't you. Can you blame me though? look at you. Anyway, I need you to keep your mouth shut. Your mom is oblivious to the situation and it needs to stay that way. If you so much say a word you will regret it."

"Oh really?! Openly admitting to screwing this family over and then telling me to be quiet about it? How do you know I don't look at you like that because your presence disturbs me. I can't look at you the same. Yes I know you're not here for me. You've never really loved me and I've always known, but you why would you suspect that? It's your fault for making it so damn obvious."

And there it was. That snap you could sense happen. And what i've expected from that outburst was pain. But it wasn't his hand. It was his glass cup. That's gonna leave a mark.

"How dare you?! I have provided for this fam-"

"No you haven't Matt!! You left this family. You cannot expect a warm welcome from your kids who you abandoned for work. You think we missed you? Yes we did but only for a bit. After a while it became normal. You cannot come back and act like you didn't leave!"

"I didn't. I was busy making money for you guys! What did you expect me to do? Let us go poor. We needed the money!"

"So why are you here? If it's not for this family? Why are you back? If we aren't enough? What do we have that you need?"

"Nothing of your concern"

"Fine. Matt. Just leave me alone and i'll consider keeping my mouth shut"

I tried to walk off but he wouldn't let me. He grabbed my shirt and tossed me into the wall.

"You will keep your fucking mouth shut. I don't care if you don't want to. You will."

"Fine."

So again I attempted to walk away. He wouldn't allow it. He threw me into the wall again and added a slap to the face. Then he let me go. how kind. I ran to my room and locked the door. The door is locked. I'm safe. Am I safe?

It gets depressing when you aren't sure if your home is safe anymore. I think it's more of a question of who is safe? Anyone? Darkness surrounds us right? It's everywhere. This world is cruel. But i'd like home to be an escape of the darkness. A safe place. But maybe a home isn't a place. Because this place sure as hell isn't safe for me anymore.

After talking to myself for a few hours I decided to go to sleep. Because sleep helps me escape.

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Alr guys I'm sorry for making this a depressing chapter but like yea. Have fun hating Josh. Let's form a hate club😭😭 #Joshhateclub