His sunflower

chapter 18

Abby's Pov

It was nearing my next date with Johnny. I felt bad that he had to see Josh's contact. Especially after me explaining what Josh did. I really did forget to change it. Hell after I broke up with him I forgot I had his number. Anyways Johnny said he was bringing me somewhere that we'll definitely see people we know. He said we need to show people that we're together and stuff. I agreed.

Sierra and Maddy were over helping me get ready. They genuinely believe I like him so they really tried. And sad thing for me is I had to act like I was genuinely falling for him. I don't hate him but I don't like him like that. Me declaring I don't hate him doesn't mean I have warm feelings for me. I still don't like him. It's just not strong enough to be considered hate. But if my best friends believed me I should be an actor. Because apparently i'm a fucking good one.

They helped me pick an outfit that was more dressy but not too dressy. It had a little sense of casual but not too casual. I don't know how to explain it in those words so i'm just gonna say what it is. A nice top and some ripped jeans. But the top made it look more dressy. I think that made more sense. Anyways they chose these really cute flat type shoes for me to pair with it and my little target brand black purse I bought.

After I was ready with the outfit they applied a natural layer of makeup on my face. Meaning I had a layer of foundation and concealers with some mascara. They also applied some lip gloss and brow gel. I felt pretty which for me doesn't happen often. Yes, I know i'm not ugly but I don't usually feel pretty. I don't know how to explain it. It's basically a confidence issue even though I know i'm pretty.

Moving on from my internal conflicts I was now ready for my date. I basically waited downstairs in my living room after Sierra and Maddy left waiting for Johnny. He only lives across the street so I knew he'd either be early or right in time. But I didn't want to start anything in my house just in case he decided to show up early.

I was right to assume because he knocks on the door a few minutes later. When I open the he has a smile on his face and looks down to my outfit.

"Wow you look really pretty"

"Thanks. You don't look too bad yourself"

We give each other a small smile before he moves to the side to let me out of my house. I walk to his car and sit down in the passenger seat. His car is actually really nice. And surprisingly clean. Knowing what I know about Johnny is that he doesn't clean. So seeing his car clean is really surprising.

He then climbs into the driver seat of his car and inserts the key in the ignition. He starts driving down the road when my favorite song comes on. I immediately move to turn the music up and start belting the song lyrics. It took me a minute to realize I was in a car with Johnny but I also realized I didn't care so I kept singing. He would make little "subtle" glances over at me with a very amused look on his face.

"Come on Rodriguez I know you love this song. Sing it with me" I give his arm a little nudge as I say it

At first he rolls his eyes at me but he eventually complies and starts singing the song. Very off key might I add. It was fun though.

It took another 20 minutes before he pulled into a parking lot. I've never been to this place but it was called le madeline. It sounded fancy but when we stepped inside everyone was dressed just like me. Casual but not too casual. Which was a nice vibe. It made you feel comfortable.

We made our way to a table and looked at the menu. I saw one thing on the menu and that all I had to see. I already knew what I wanted. And he would look at me like I was a child but I don't care. I am one. And he honestly can't say anything. He still watches Shrek. So he can handle me ordering a grilled cheese.

It took him a few more minutes but was ready by the time the waiter came.

"Hello welcome to Le madeline. What can I get you to drink?"

"Can I get a Dr. Pepper please." I say smiling to seem polite

"And can I get a water. Thank you" What a basic human being I came on a date with

"Okay coming right up. Are y'all ready to order food or do you need a minute"

"I think we're ready" I say

"Okay what can I get for y'all?"

"Can I get the grilled cheese sandwich with the tomato basil soup please" And just like I thought Johnny gave me a look that said seriously a grilled cheese? But I ignored him because grilled cheese sandwiches slap.

"And can I get the chicken le madeleine"

"Coming right up" The waiter leaves smiling at us

"Really Richards. A grilled cheese?"

"what?! They're good"

He just rolls his eyes at me and looks around. I do the same. As he suspected I do see a few familiar faces. But I land on one specific face and immediately go tense. Josh was here. With Becca of all people. Johnathan suspects my tenseness and comes to sit closer to me. I smile at him and act like everything is normal. When the drinks come out I immediately start drinking it just to give me something to do.

Johnny looks at me and puts his hand in mine giving it a reassuring squeeze. It did little to calm my nerves but comforting nonetheless. Josh finds my gaze and gives me a little casual smirk as he makes his way to the table.

"Hey Johnny"

Johnny just rolls his eyes at Josh and puts his attention on me. I start to panic because Josh was the type of person to start a fight over something stupid like that.

"Abby" Josh gives a "respectful" nod in my direction

"H-hi" I stutter. I fucking stuttered. Seriously abby? Don't show weakness.

Josh gives a little laugh and then turns away kissing Becca. I scoff and roll my eyes. Then I turn to look at Johnny. Our faces were too close. Way to close. Then something in me snapped. I couldn't control it. I started breathing heavily. And that quickly turned into not being able to catch my breath. Johnny looked concerned. He kept asking me if I was okay but I couldn't answer him. I couldn't talk. I was having a fucking panic attack in a restaurant. Great.

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Oop. Look at that.

Anyways. I'm on spring break so hopefully y'all will get more chapters!