chapter 23

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Abby pov

"So about Johnny and me"

I took a pause while they were still looking at me expectantly. They were getting impatient so I just spit it out.

"We aren't really dating. It's been fake. Josh did some things and that lead to me asking Johnny for a favor and then that landed us to fake dating and now we're here." I said with a small smile trying to lighten the mood

"What!" Sierra was pissed. She looked betrayed, hurt, and angry. I feel bad but they have to understand why I didn't tell them.

"Look I didn't tell you because I wasn't sure it was gonna even last this long, but Josh is still trying so me and Johnny have to play this a little longer." I tried staying calm but the look on their faces made me want to cry. I hurt them by not telling them and it's come back to bite me in the butt.

"Why didn't you just tell us?" Maddy said softly

"I wanted to. You have no idea how much I wanted to, but Johnny said we shouldn't tell anyone. Im so so so sorry."

"We wouldn't have said anything Abigail and you know that. Since when does Johnny decide what you do?" Yep Sierra is most definitely mad.

"He doesn't, but like I said I thought it would be over by now. I didn't think it would become important enough to point out."

"That first day we saw y'all sitting together. You lied straight to our faces. You made up a complete lie right on the spot. So effortlessly. Why did you lie then. You could've just told us." They're right. It was such an effortless lie and completely unnecessary.

"I know and i'm so sorry."

"You keep saying sorry but I don't know if I believe you Abby. I think i'm gonna go home. See you later." Sierra stood up and went to grab her stuff

"Sierra! please! Don't leave!" I could feel the tears forming in my eyes because I know if she walks out that door she isn't coming back.

"I'll see y'all later" And then she left. Not even a glance in my direction.

"I think I should go too. Abby I know you're sorry and that you'll do everything to make us forgive you, but right now we need space. Give us that, okay?" Maddy is a lot more calm than Sierra but her words hurt. My best friends wanted space from me. Stupid Johnny. Stupid Josh. Stupid stupid stupid.

I walked upstairs and closed my door. I jumped onto my bed submerging myself under my the covers. I reached for the remote and searched for a movie on Netflix. Every movie I passed looked too happy to watch to so I went to Amazon Prime and put on The Hunger Games. After about 10 minutes of me watching the movie and crying my phone dinged. For a second I thought it would be Sierra or Maddy but I was mistaken. It was Johnny. And I was not in the mood to talk to him. So I ignored him and turned my phone off.

My family had decided to go to dinner because I was having my friends over but that backfired and now i'm home alone. I knew the second my mom saw that I was alone she'd pester me with questions asking what's wrong. And Jacob would soon come in after doing the same thing. I'm hoping Matt will do what he's done my whole life and not care enough to ask me anything.

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After what I think was 4 hours I woke up to the front door opening. I fell asleep during the movie and I could feel my eyes puffing up from crying. When I heard footsteps coming up the stairs I turned my back to the door and closed my eyes acting asleep hoping that would work. I heard my door open and someone enter. I did my best to stay still and keep my breathing even. I was hoping they'd come around see I was asleep and leave me be. If only I was that lucky.

My mom shook me awake and asked me why Sierra and Maddy weren't here. At the mention of their names I started crying again. I can't believe how stupid I could have been. I tried telling her but I just got choked up on my tears and I couldn't bring myself to tell the story yet. Instead of making me talk she just held me. She let me cry it out. I haven't cried with my mom like this in a really long time. I forgot how comforting it can be to cry with someone. A little after I started Jacob came in and joined the group hug. They just sat with me and Jacob put the next Hunger Games movie back on. I didn't cry for much longer but even when I finished they didn't pester me with questions. They were gonna let me talk when I felt like it. Which I respected.

After the movie was over they got up and left my room. Probably getting ready for bed since it was pretty late. Tomorrow is a Friday and I'm gonna ask my mom if I can just skip it. For all I know I won't miss anything important, but I can't face them. Not yet. I sent my mom a quick text asking permission and she said the only way I can skip is if I fill her in on the details tomorrow. I agreed and thanked her for letting me stay. Then I went back to sleep.

When I woke up the sun was shining through my curtains. I looked at my phone and it read 12:03 pm. I got a good nights sleep but I still feel shitty. The second I woke up I remembered everything that happened. Every single fucking detail. I can't believe I didn't realize how bad I messed this up until I forgot to tell them about Josh. One thing led to another which then led to me fucking up my relationship with the two most important people in my life. I had a few texts from Johnny asking where I was but I didn't answer him. I stayed in my bed and watched movies.

At one point my mom came up to my room with ice cream and as promised I told her the whole story. I even went back to how Josh treated me. I told her everything. Instead of calling me stupid or telling me that I fucked up she looked at me with pity in her eyes and hugged me. Telling me it was all going to work out. They just need some space. They need to cool off but they'll come around. I'm hoping she's right because if they don't I don't even know what i'll do.

My mom had to leave for work which meant I was home alone again. And much to my dismay someone was at the door. I stood up and looked in the mirror and man I look like shit. So I ran a brush through my hair and put on an over sized hoodie to hide my pajamas. I put my hair in a bun and chewed on a piece of gum. When I got to the door I looked through the peep whole and sighed. I opened the door to reveal yours truly Johnny.

"Hey Johnny..."

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